Taking a break today. Having a hard day and I just want to flip out. Just yell and scream at someone for no reason at all. My psychiatrist asked me today if my fame is making me feel pressured. I don’t know what fame she is talking about. Sure my blog is successful and I have quite a few hundred followers. I am grateful for them. But I don’t think that makes me famous. I don’t want to be famous, well only if there was a HUGE bank account attached to it!
I still feel like crap because I haven’t slept really well. I have no appetite. All I had today was a donut at Starbucks with my coffee. I just don’t feel like eating. I just took a pain pill so I know I will be loopy soon. I should make the bacon that has been left over before it goes bad but I just don’t feel like it. It takes too much of an effort. Just like today I was trying to edit one of my blogs. It was very poorly written, not my best work. Had a whole bunch of mistakes and grammatical errors. I got fed up with it and had to stop working on it. I just felt like scratching the whole thing out rather than work on the mistakes.
I finally got Clint Black’s D’electrified cd. I love this CD. I finally found the song I was looking for, and more. I forgot how good this album is. I am relaxing with it as I am writing this. It was really hard finding this CD because it’s not available as MP3s. But I am glad I got it as I don’t know what happened to my first copy.
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