Woke up today in pain. Took some Ativan and went back to sleep after waiting a while for it to kick in. I played some computer games on Facebook. Right now I am listening to the Sox play.
I made French toast for the first time in a long while then I made my coffee. I finally have the right ratio to water/coffee to make it perfect. I really enjoy a good cup of coffee.
I am feeling down today. My cousin called me and wants to go out to eat tonight. I told him I would but I have a feeling he will be canceling on me. Any late dinners usually is canceled for some reason. He said that if he cancels he will give me a haircut Tuesday. I don’t get it. We’ll see what happens. Either way, my mother is making pork ribs so that will be good.
I hate feeling so low for no reason. I can blame my sox because they made 3 errors today but that wouldn’t be fair. Beside baseball usually makes me happy, whether they win or lose.
I know I should be editing my writing or at least, maybe, write something new. I have been getting the itch to write but I just can’t seem to scratch it. Nothing is coming to me. My writing partner is in town. We were supposed to meet up tomorrow but she had to reschedule. Now it seems Tuesday we will meet up. I am kind of nervous about it. I just hope that I remember to bring her my book. She is in the acknowledgement and without her, I doubt I would have the courage to write and publish.
I am getting a migraine. I am so tired. I should sleep some more but my head is just hurting too bad. My family is up north having a pig roast. They have one every 4th of July. I was thinking of going but it’s in the woods and I don’t want mosquitoes to bite me. Plus it’s an all day affair and I know I would be bored after an hour or two. Then I would be stuck there as there would be no way I could get back home as I don’t have a car.
A friend of mine from Scotland read my book. He wants to Skype with me but as much as I would like to say I am tech savvy, Skype eludes me, always has. I know I have it on my computer with the video cam but I have never used it. I feel self conscious about online video. I have image issues so even though someone might give me a compliment, I don’t believe them because my brain just tells me otherwise. I don’t say this to the person of course as it will just spark an argument.
I just turned off the ceiling fan as it’s a pretty cool day today. Finally have a rest after the storm that hit yesterday. Luckily, no power went out in my area. It is pretty windy today, probably just remnants of the storm.
I finally took a shower today after not taking on all week. I had no inclination on taking one because I just didn’t feel like it. It’s hard to take any self care when you feel like killing yourself.
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