I’m still sore today. I know I should just go out and work out the muscles but I am too tired. I woke up again at 0630 in pain. It finally settled around 8 so I could go back to sleep for a few hours. I should have shut my phone off but kept it on. Stupid me. Damn thing was constantly a buzz and then my Brother in law called me wanting me to babysit. So by then, I had to get up. Luckily, I didn’t have to babysit too long as my sister came home about an hour later.
I am so tired and don’t know why. I really want to sleep. My leg is hurting me. My right leg is better than it was yesterday. I can move it without pain. But my left is a whole other story. I can’t flex my ankle. I can’t bear weight on the ankle and the damn thing is still swollen. It’s pissing me off. No matter what I do, I am in pain. The few times I have gone down the stairs, have been awful. Going down hurts the most. Coming back up, not so much. I really want to chop my foot off.
Mood wise, I am still feeling ok. I am not as depressed as I was a month ago, well, I guess it’s closer to two months now since I left the hospital. I haven’t been suicidal, though I have thought of taking all my pain medication because the pain has been so awful. I have just enough to last till Monday and then I don’t know what I am going to do. I can’t refill my script until the 28th. I have to get my doc to rewrite the order so I can get it filled. If not, I am screwed.
But I have to deal with my blood pressure issues so I don’t know if I will have time to tell him I need more pain pills. I have therapy that night so I hope to tell her I am not going to be in severe pain the next week or so. I might have to take the stronger pain pills, which I am loathe to do because of constipation. It basically stops my bowels and I have to take something or else I don’t go. Oh the joys of pain meds. I have found that taking fiber pills have helped me go. Only problem is that if I take more than four a day (max is six), I have the opposite problem. And with CES, that is just trouble written all over it!
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