No Social Media Tonight

No Social Media Tonight

I am recording the Country Music Awards, which I will watch tomorrow, I hope. So until then, I have to avoid twitter and facebook because everyone is talking about who won. I get text messages from twitter for my favorite DJ and had to put a stop to that. She was also tweeting all the winners.

After I had dinner, I had to take a nap for some reason. I was really tired and I am not sure why. I usually help my mother cook dinner when her back is acting up. I didn’t do much as things were almost done anyway. The most I did was put pasta in a pan to cook. I helped to clear some of the stuff away after we ate. I didn’t wash anything as I don’t do it “right”. I don’t know why my energy levels went to zero after doing this light activity. I was feeling tired anyways so maybe that is why. I never went to the store. I’ll probably go tomorrow while I am out.

I am having weird sensations in my arms. They feel like string beans. I haven’t felt like this in a long time. It’s uncomfortable but bearable, least for now. I need more sleep. Usually, I get these sensations if I am sleep deprived. I just took my night meds so I am waiting for them to kick in. Since taking double dose of my mood stabilizer, I have been feeling better. The depression is still rearing its ugly head but I am not feeling manicky.

I got a call from Dell today, giving me an update on my laptop. They are working on repairing it now and it should take a couple days to do so. I was hoping it was going to take less time, but as long as it is done right, I don’t care how long it takes. I think it should be shipped out to me sometime next week. I hope there are no problems with it after they fix it. The last time they fixed it, I had to return it to them because the fan was making a high pitched noise. It was driving me insane. Luckily, that was still under warranty at the time so I didn’t have to pay for it.

I just looked up when was the first time I started the “Quote of the Day”. It’s been almost a month. I am going to have to keep a notebook so there are no repeats. Shneidman likes to repeat himself. I have found the quote “there are many pointless deaths but no needless suicides” at least three times in the book, so far. I am re-reading it because it is an interesting book. The next session talks about how he was able to predict who would kill themselves and who wouldn’t in a study he was researching. I find that fascinating. If only we could apply it to the real world. I must have read this at least four times so I know what to expect. I think he writes a little bit of all this stuff in every book he wrote. Most of these books he wrote toward the end of his life so it’s not surprising there are repeated things. There are still some books that I want just so that I have his collection of works. But they are hard to find because they are no longer in print. I used to have a website that had out of print books but I don’t remember the name. I think it was in Canada. I found Murray’s classic “Explorations in Personality” in it. It was printed in 1938. I have not read it. I have this thing where I buy books and they collect dust. I say I am going to read it, and never do. I have three books so far that I bought three years ago that I still haven’t read. It was tough because the “Battle Cry for Freedom” took me so long to read that it kind of left me not want to ever read again. But I am making headway with “Dead Wake” and I am happy with that. I think because the chapters are short, I am able to get through the book.

I really want to go on Twitter. But I don’t want to see who won awards. And it’s a pain to mute everyone because then I have to unmute them tomorrow.

I really don’t want to see my father tomorrow. But I have no choice. Think I will reward myself with a roast beef sandwich and onion rings afterwards. I also need to try and get a haircut. This Friday I have to see my pdoc. I don’t want to see her either. I am kind of mad at her because she didn’t respond to any of my emails that I sent to her. Not one acknowledgement that she even received them. It pisses me off when I don’t hear back from her. It’s like I am sending the messages to cyberspace when I don’t hear back.