Author: Midnight Demon

Saturday Blog 17012026

I woke up early because I had to pee. It was difficult to go back to sleep because the puppy was up and my niece kept yelling at her. 4 am is not a time for play, puppy! I had a dream I was again on a psych unit. This time Terri Clark, one of my favorite country artists, was in the dream. She played a counselor in the dream. I was assigned a task to do but kept losing what it was I needed. I had my pen and it must have fell out of my pocket and someone destroyed it. It was weird.

I got up to pee again after and I brushed my teeth. I had already taken my meds around 630. My upper back was killing me. It felt like someone had been punching me while I was sleeping. I tried to sleep more on my stomach but I couldn’t stay that way. I have to sleep on my side and it has to be my right side. I don’t stay too long on my left.

I got up around 11 and had coffee. I also had a yogurt. I asked my sister if she would take me to the pharmacy and she said she would. I got there and when I logged onto my laptop, I realized I forgot the pickup order I placed. Dammit. I always forget.

I had some ravioli for lunch as I was hungry. My stomach is upset now. My sister is making a lasagna. I am tired. I nearly was sleeping on the ride home with my sister. It’s too late now to nap.

I have eight days before the semester starts. I need to start reading the textbook. Maybe I can do that tomorrow or Monday. I really need to make an effort to clear my bed off. I am so close to it being done.

Busy day and puppy spoiling

I spent the day with the puppy. I spoiled her. I gave her treats and some eggs which she ate so fast she ended up vomiting them. I wrapped her in a blanket (photo) because she looked cold. I love her so much.

I had an appt with my psychiatrist. He doesn’t think I am in a depressive episode. He is not denying that I am depressed. He said I am “experiencing joy” so he doesn’t think I am not in an episode. Whatever. He isn’t going to make any med changes. I told him I was taking trazodone. It is helping me sleep better.

This morning I was hungry. Mind my sister woke me up before 630 because the puppy was whimpering for me. So that is how my day started. I had some cheese and within a half hour my gallstone pain started up again. I have been in pain all day. My stomach has been upset and I am not sure it is related to the gallbladder or the weight loss drug. My pcp increased the dose. My weight hasn’t really changed. I had some soup for lunch.

I had my appt with my DMH worker today. I thought it was going to rain today as the porch was wet this morning but it cleared up and warmed up. I wanted to leave to pick up my meds but the dog puked and cleaning it up flared up my back. I managed to take a shower and brush my teeth. My smooth head is now feeling like sandpaper as hair is growing back. I will need to shave tomorrow.

I am listening to Show Girl by Taylor. It is my new favorite. I do go back to 1989 every so often. Blank Space is one of my favorite songs. It is my therapist song as there is always a blank space for them. I have seen so many I wonder if they will be a mistake. My new one is turning out to be ok even though she nods her head a lot.