Book is completed. I finished it up today, sort of. I still don’t have a solid beginning or ending but the bulk of the book is done. Now I just have to wait for the editor to put me in her queue, make some changes and boom, I will be ready for publishing. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my chest and now I can open and read my reward!
I even got the acknowledgement of one of the consultants so I need to add his name or maybe just leave it as treatment team. He is apart of that.
I am so excited about this. I could if I really wanted to, publish it today, but I want a few people to read it first and give me their feedback before I proceed. I also want to print it out so I know what it looks like. Right now I know it is 160 pages but after formatting I think it will be double that. I was looking at some other publishing sites and they wanted as much as $9K for self-publishing! I couldn’t believe it! You got a lot of stuff for that price but still, that is still a substantial amount of money to put into a book. But I guess if you want it to do well, you might as well put the money into it. Unfortunately, I don’t have 9K so I will just publish for free and hope that it does well.
I am kind of scared that I am getting closer to the end product. All my doubts and fears are there. I know when it comes down to the last page of writing and hitting send, I am going to take a long hard look at that click button.
My side effects seem to be ok today. I didn’t take my dose last night because I didn’t want to be an elastic ball today. I paged my pdoc to talk to her. Just in case those feelings come back, but she hasn’t returned the page. I also sent her an email so she knows that I am paging her. Sometimes I don’t have the luck of sending pages through. Symptoms for the past few days have started around 4 pm and so far I don’t have any other than the soreness of the past few days. I hope I can take my dose tonight or that my pdoc doesn’t want me to lower the dose. I am so afraid of the voices coming back but I also don’t want to be an elastic ball being stretched and have restless limbs where I have to keep moving them.
I had a therapy appointment today. I also got snuck into one tomorrow. I don’t know how that happened. But the 17th is still off the table, as far as I know. I just need that day off away from my therapist as it is going to be a hard day. And I don’t want her to know why. I will just keep this to myself this time. I am not going to share it with my blog because it just seems too personal. I hope that you will let me keep my privacy. If I do write about, the blog will be a protected blog and the password will be midnight.
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