Rest Day

Rest day

I decided today would be my rest day for the week as I did too much yesterday. I was in a lot of pain and I think I wrote some interesting stuff to my therapist that has me worried. Mr. Hyde wanted to come out, least I think he did, but what was actually written was not his style. I don’t know who it was. I was really tired when I wrote it so maybe it was my deep, dark, true feelings about myself. I don’t know, it was just creepy. Then after I wrote it, I feel asleep for eight hours straight! I woke up around 7ish. But I didn’t get out of bed until my mother left the house around 9. I really didn’t want a conversation with her. I made breakfast (no coffee) and then took my pain meds and slept until about an hour ago. I had something to eat and then went to visit my sister. She is babysitting her friend’s baby and he is adorable. I want to see his baby toes. They are so cute! And he loves when I tickle his feet. He cracks up. So funny!

I haven’t worked on the TG paper at all the last few days. I am trying to make it shorter but am finding it hard to do. Plus every time I edit it, I seem to make it longer. I gave a copy to a friend for her opinion on it and to see where I should make the cuts, but I haven’t heard back from her. I probably will tomorrow. Least I hope so. But it’s not like I am in a rush. I still have a few weeks to work on it. I have taken the blog down and placed it as private so no one can read it. It will be available whenever it gets published on the suicide blog.

It’s really hot in the house, even hotter outside today. I still have time to walk to the post office before they close, but my ankle is bothering me so not sure I would be able to walk that far. It’s like three, maybe four, blocks to the post office. I really want to get this errand done today but not sure the pain afterwards is going to be worth it. I just took another pain pill so maybe if it settles down, I will go. I hate walking in the heat though. And it will be silly to take my sister’s car for such a short distance. Maybe the walk will wake me up a little more, though I am debating making coffee. Thing is, I don’t want to be up all night if I drink it now, though I usually have my mocha, latte, or coffee at this hour at Starbucks so I don’t know why I am so finicky. I will make the coffee and then go to the post office. Sounds like a plan to me! But so much for this being a rest day if I go out. I did rest most of the day and being out for 30 mins isn’t wasting the entire day, right? Right.