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Went out today. First time since my PT appointment on Wednesday. I wish I could say that it was because of pain that kept me in, but it was more the weather being shitty and my mood being low. We are supposed to have another snow storm come tomorrow night, which means I might not have therapy on Tuesday. If school is canceled on account of snow, my therapy is canceled. It doesn’t happen too often but she lives right in the middle of where the storm is going to hit. I definitely won’t be going out that day. I just hope everything is cleaned up so I can go out Wednesday. I have therapy and PT that day. Going to be fun!

I was thinking over my finances and I don’t think I am going to get everything I plan on getting. I am just afraid that if I go ahead an buy the things that I am storing, I won’t have enough for my meds and groceries. Those things need to come first. And I will have to get the expensive antipsychotic this month. Think I will get those things first and whatever is left over, hopefully will be enough to get a printer. I will also be having lunch with my high school friend. I am kind of hoping he pays but we might have to split the bill, which I don’t mind. I purposely made it for this week that I am getting paid so I will have money. I am also going to see if I can get a monthly pass this month for the bus and train. I totally exceeded the $20 this month going to PT and back. It costs me more than going to Starbucks because I have to take the train. I also need to save some money for glasses some time this year.

I am feeling low today. My father really pissed me off. He just was ornery and I hate when he is ornery and picks on me. We were at a pizza parlor, having lunch and he accused me of drinking all the Pepsi. I only had one glass, but poured the last of it for my sister. He is just an ignorant asshole. I fucking hate him.

I didn’t sleep good last night. I woke up around 0230 in pain. I wasn’t able to get back to sleep till after 0400. Then my sister texted me around 0930 and I had to get up to see jerk face. I am glad I only see him once a week. I am really tired and want to take a nap but my mother just had a hypo experience so I need to be awake in case she needs me for something.

I need to get a haircut this week. That has to be a priority. I don’t know when exactly but I am hoping to do it sometime on Thursday. Maybe after my lunch date with my friend. I will be getting another flat top. My hair is not long but the wisps when I put on my baseball hat drives me crazy.