Back to being depressed
The hypomanic stuff has finally worked its way out of my system. They don’t last too long. I was lucky to have it for as long as I did. I miss it already. But I am still being productive. I saw my psychiatrist today. She looks good and I think she was happy to see me. It is much better meeting in person than talking via email! She gave me the run down on her issues. She isn’t back full time yet, just working three days a week. I forgot to ask her about her pager so I sent her an email. I haven’t heard back yet. I gave her the run down of how the last few days have been and asked if I am managing it ok. It was so difficult without talking to her first. But she said I kept her in the loop and that I managed okay. I still am struggling and I asked her if this was to continue. She just said “we’ll see”. It’s not that often that I have a hypomanic episode. I get one every few years, though this is my second one since being on the remeron. While I was in the hospital in August, and a few days of starting the remeron, I had great euphoria, the complete opposite of what I came in for (being suicidal). It only lasted about 18 hours. This time it lasted a little bit longer than that. I am just waiting for the big crash. I know that is coming, I just don’t know when.
Today was colder than it has been all week. Tomorrow is supposed to be raining so I don’t think I will be going out. I have been out almost every day this week, only exception being Monday when I was in sleep/depression land. I picked up my niece today, which I think is the straw that is going to break the camel’s back. My calves are killing me. Between my house and her school, there are a lot of little hills. It took a lot out of me and I know I am going to be sore tomorrow. But I don’t mind because I am not planning on going out. Only reason I might go out is to get my prescription I dropped off at the pharmacy. I still have enough pills to get me through the weekend so if I don’t go tomorrow, I can certainly go Sunday.
My new Bluetooth headphones came today. They are much more comfortable than the other pair that I had. Next week I will test them out while walking. My old pair didn’t do too well but then they are nearly 5 years old. I hope the mic works well. I haven’t tried it out yet. The only thing that sucks about this headset is that you need a laptop to charge it. Not really going to be useful while I am in the hospital, if I should happen to get admitted again.
I am preparing myself for getting a new phone in the upcoming months. I bought a micro 64GB card and an otterbox. Both items were on sale so I didn’t feel bad buying them. And the cool thing about the 64GB is that I can also use it as a USB drive. I am going to get the Galaxy S5. But I am going to wait until the S6 comes out to Sprint before buying it because I would hate to pay $200 when I could pay half that or less. I am due an upgrade as it has been more than two years since my last one. I just don’t know if I want to spend $200 on a phone that is likely to become “old” in 6 months. My phone still works but lately it has been freezing and I have had to shut it down a few times to get it working right again. I just hope that all my songs I can transfer without a “licensing” issue. It will really suck to have to either buy the songs again or not be able to download it through Amazon’s MP3 player. But I will cross that bridge when I get to it.
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