Sleepy Saturday

Sleepy Saturday

I took my meds this morning and I guess the baclofen along with the trileptal kicked my ass. I was knocked out by 1330. I just woke up about a half hour ago. I had something to eat and then had one of my cookies. My mother made her chocolate chip cookies but they didn’t taste as good as mine.

I had a good nap but now I can’t go to the pharmacy to pick up my prescription as they are now closed. I hate that they close early on weekends. I will have to pick it up tomorrow. Tomorrow is my brother in law’s birthday party. I have no idea who is invited and who will show up. I will make an appearance and then quietly leave after the cake is served. I will be putting out my cookies. I am sure they will be gone in a flash. Despite them being a malt cookie, they don’t really taste like it. They are just really chocolaty. But then I had to use chocolate malt because it was the only kind of malt Stop and Shop had. I was really shocked they didn’t have any other kind other than Ovaltine. I am not sure if I will be using the rest of it. I never had Ovaltine before. I will try it and see if I like it. I really don’t want it to go to waste as it was $5 for the can. I might make the cookies again and, as my niece suggested, use parchment paper so the cookies don’t stick to the pan. I wonder if it will stick to the paper though? That will suck!

I really need to control my spending but I have no control. Yesterday was hypomanic for most of the day. I emailed my psychiatrist and she thinks it might be the abilify causing my mood to be elevated. I don’t care. I rather be up than down. But today I am kind of on the downside of things. I am not depressed, just a little sad. I found out my new favorite catcher is hurt and is out of the ballgame for a while. Now they have another no name catcher. I haven’t seen him play all spring so I don’t know if he is a good replacement or not. I feel bad for the hurt catcher because he is young (in his early 20s). I don’t know what is wrong with his elbow. He just had an MRI yesterday so results probably won’t be available until Monday or Tuesday. I just hope he doesn’t have to have surgery.

My spending is on take out food. I bought a steak and cheese sub and a half pizza today with fries. I was craving it so I ordered it. I have been feeling guilty since I bought it. I know I am going to regret it because I could have used the money to buy my fish and chips, which would have lasted longer than the take out food. I usually buy a big bag of Gordon’s breaded fish and then a bag of tater tots, hence, fish and chips. Now I am not sure I can get them. My gluttonous habits suck. Least the pizza will last a day or two. I love eating cold pizza.

I have been staring at an article about Edwin Shneidman the last few days. I have been meaning to read it but just haven’t had the motivation to do so. I am sure I will find something useful in the article relating to how to prevent suicide and make me feel better because reading about Shneidman always makes me feel better about my suicidal thoughts. He gets how suicidal people can become. And I actually met the author that wrote the article, Dr. Antoon Leenaars. He is a wonderful guy. I met him when he was in Boston for the 41st annual AAS conference.