I took my mood stabilizer again early in the morning when I woke up and fell asleep. I feel so groggy. I haven’t made coffee yet and will soon. This is terrible. How am I going to function during the day if I just want to sleep? I won’t be taking it tomorrow morning because I have an appointment with my pdoc in the afternoon and I don’t want to be drowsy. I know the risk is becoming hypomanic but I will risk it. I got to go to Walgreens today. I need some more dark chocolate and to pick up the rest of my prescriptions. The app that I have kept on giving me reminders so I just said the hell with it and ordered it. I will go after I have my coffee.
I am feeling kind of depressed. I found out today my niece went back to her college dorm. She didn’t even say goodbye to me. She took my mother’s toaster oven and left. I won’t see her probably until Thanksgiving. I really am going to miss her, course I didn’t really see her most of the summer because she was working and taking a couple of classes. But she did make some awesome brownies when we were together. Why do kids have to grow up?
I really don’t want to do anything today. Going to Walgreens is going to be a hurdle. I also need to take a shower sometime today. Maybe that will wake me up, but giving my track records with showers, I doubt it. I really just want to go back to sleep. The weird thing is, I take the same dose at night and it doesn’t make me sleepy. I don’t understand it. Maybe I should take it by itself and see if it does make me crash. I think my sleep will be better. I thought the tiredness would wear off after a few days but it doesn’t seem to be that way. I don’t know what to do. I need this med to control the hypos but I don’t want to be sleeping all day. Unless the crash is starting and the depression is masking the effects of the drug. That is possible. We’ll know tomorrow when I don’t take it.
Last night I had a weird dream. I dreamt I was working at my old retail place and it was very busy. I was working the register and returns when this lady came in with Christmas decorations wanting to return them. You could tell they were at least a few years old and it was summer so she didn’t just buy them. I had to go to the bathroom in the dream and then I woke up. The weird part was that we were working out of someone’s house rather than the store. Weird.
The stuff that I bought from Amazon came today. I got my dirt devil vacuum. It’s staying in the box until I have energy to use it. I don’t have any energy right now to play with it. I am so fricken tired. I just had lunch so I shouldn’t be tired. Game is on so I am going to watch it and make some coffee.
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