I see you
Just another country song that has some meaning in my life. This one is by Luke Bryan. I love him. He is just so adorable. Call it a bromance, though I really am not into him sexually, in the least. I just love his music and voice.
One of my blog readers has been emailing me privately with things. Today she brought up loneliness. I have done some thinking about this and to tell the truth, I don’t think I have ever been lonely in my life. I have felt alone, but that is something different, in my mind. There is a song, I think by Mary Chapin, but it could be by someone else, that said that you can be surrounded by people and feel alone yet totally be alone and not be lonely. If I am surrounded by people, I am uncomfortable and awkward, even if I know them or even if they are family members.
Today was a good day. I went to Starbucks and plan on getting a new coffee this week as I am running low on my house blend. I am going to try it first to make sure I like it before I buy it. Nothing worse than buying coffee that doesn’t taste good. I just have to decide whether to purchase the K-cups or the beans.
I came home and my bowels went berserk. I have not been able to stop going and just been making it on time. I think the combo of taking a laxative and coffee is working a little too well. I still feel full as I have been backed up for a day or two. I just hate it because I feel like the air out of a tire. It might be flat but yet it’s still holding the shape because it was overinflated (please NO Pats jokes here. I have had enough of them!!!) I am glad I don’t have nothing to do but write tonight and read. I have to make some headway into my “Battle Cry for Freedom” book. I only have 400 pages to go (not kidding). It will be the last book that I buy that is more than 500 pages. If I do purchase a book more than 500 pages, it better be worth reading and mean something to me, like a suicide book written by Shneidman or one of his followers. There is one book written by Maurizio Pompili that I really want but it costs like $100. Totally out of my budget. I will get this book one day. I wish my family was more open to talking about suicide because they might help with my library on the subject. One of these days I am going to clear a shelf on my bookcase that has just old books that I haven’t read in years and just put my suicidology books on it so they are all in one place.
Everyone and their mother seems to be talking about the storm that is supposed to approach my area in the next few hours. I have my friends from Pennsylvania, Australia, and South Carolina comment about it. My past experience is the meteorologists hype up the weather and then it is nothing more than a few inches of snow. It is just flurries right now and they have put in a travel ban at midnight tonight until further notice! Ridiculous!! I have probably no therapy tomorrow because schools are closed. My physical therapy appointment has been canceled because they are closing their office. And this is BEFORE anything hits. It is just non-sense. If we do get hit with a dump, we get hit with a dump. I am not going to sweat about it. I don’t have to work so it’s not like it is really affecting me. I feel bad for the people that do have to work in it like those that work at 24/7 hospital shifts. Hospitals don’t close because there is a threat of a snow dump or frigid temperatures.
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