crappy day

I am having a crappy day. I had to go see my pdoc today. We talked about my week and that I am considering stopping my meds. She said she wasn’t sure how that would help my blood pressure. Little does she know that I stopped taking it a few weeks ago. I am waiting till next month when I see my PCP to see if I need it or not. I don’t think I need it but then it’s not like I am checking my blood pressure regularly either. There are no signs of being hypertensive. I just hate taking the pill. It’s a thick round pill and sometimes I have trouble swallowing it.

Then to make my day that much better my ceiling fan is on the fritz. I turned it on when I got home and it’s making a grinding noise. I don’t know if it is a motor thing or a fan thing. I’ll have my brother in law look at it tonight. Don’t think there will be much he can do without taking it apart, which is going to suck. I took two of the non working lamps off and that seems to help with the noise but didn’t cure it. It is driving me nuts but I need air on this humid day. I would run the AC but it’s too cool for that. Just another annoyance for today. Least I have a smoke detector in my room in case it really goes.

I haven’t showered all week. I meant to take one today before going out but I slept too late and didn’t feel like it. I still don’t. My ankle is bitching at me and I wish I could yell back at it but it won’t do much good. It’s going to hurt anyways. I might take it later tonight when it isn’t so angry at me. For some reason the ceiling fan is causing me to have a “brain freeze” affect in my ankle. I think I will have to shut the fan off soon so I can take a shower. Maybe that will help the mood that I am in.

I hate the new update for my rocket player app. It is the app I mostly use to play my music on my phone. I have an android app but it doesn’t pop up on power up like rocket. The latest app shuffle sucks. I listen to a whole album of the same artist before it “shuffles” to the next artist. It then plays two songs and then plays an album. ANNOYING!! I have switched to the android player for now. It still suck shuffling but not as bad as the rocket app.

I told my pdoc what my therapist did about reading my blogs without my permission. She didn’t offer anything about it. But then there really isn’t much to say. My therapist can read my blog like a million other people. I wish I knew why it bothers me so much. I know I should let it go but I just can’t. My therapist is on vacation this week. I have one full week without her annoyances and nosiness.

My pdoc informed today she is on vacation the middle two weeks in August but she is still available via email if I need her. She also has not had a chance to read the paper I sent her for some input. It is a paper I already posted as a blog but I think needs some final touches to but don’t know about. My friend hasn’t gotten back to me about the suicide and relationship one that I started. I think I wrote a page about it and now have no idea where the ideas went.

I am having my own Taylor Swift concert in my room tonight rather than watch Lackey pitch. From the sounds of Red Sox Nation, it looks like they are not doing too well. I am passionate about my Sox but I love Taylor so don’t mind listening to her. It has been a while since I heard her songs. Other than the ones I have picked for my “mixed” playlist, I really don’t listen to her other songs. Just hope the Rocket app doesn’t mess with playing all the albums one by one. I would like some of the older songs mixed with the new. Wonder if I can tailor it to my satisfaction?