Saturday Blog 5

Saturday Blog 5

It’s another Saturday. I wanted to do nothing today but when I woke up, I really wanted a cup of coffee so I made a cup. I then decided to go to the grocery store to get my own cream so I don’t have to keep taking my sister’s. I also got some American cheese as it was on sale. I don’t know how, but the few things I bought came to about $20. And now I am hurting because I was standing too much while waiting at the deli counter.

I woke up at 0330 in pain. I am starting to think that my pain meds wear off and soon after, I wake up because the pain is so bad. This is the second night in a row that I woke up in the wee hours of the morning. My thoughts got really dark and I started planning my death. I think I even texted my therapist that I was going to do something and this time, she is not going to stop me. I just can’t stand being in pain anymore. It’s exhausting.

Last night I went out to see a friend of mine from Australia. My pain level was medium so I could actually see him without it bothering me too much. And if it did, at least I could rest today. We had a good chat and then he was off to his next destination, NJ (New Jersey for those not familiar with US abbreviations). He messaged me just as I was waking up this morning. I had to laugh out loud when I said who the hell would be wanted to chat at this hour. I am glad it was him telling me he arrived okay and not someone else. I really was not in the mood to talk to someone at 0330! I was in a lot of pain and in a really bad mood.

In baseball news, my boys still suck. They lost to the Skankees last night 6-0. I am glad I didn’t watch the game because I was out with my friend. Then today I find out they called up a rookie only to have him sit on the bench. I am shaking my head at that one. But I think he will play later in the game as Nava doesn’t play complete games. They usually pull him after the 5th inning. I hope they put in the rookie and not Gomes. Gomes has sucked as a pinch hitter and worse as an outfielder. He just doesn’t have the same interest in playing like he did last year. Least that what it looks like to me when I watch him play.

Just realized, I forgot to get cookies while I was at the grocery store. Dammit. Oreo just came out with Reese peanut butter Oreos. They are the BOMB. My niece and I ate the entire package in one day. They were that good! I don’t think I can go back to regular Oreos now. I wish they just sold the chocolate cookies. I can do without the plain crème. Now I want something sweet.