Category: depression

a shitshow of a Saturday 29072023

by Midnight Demon, posted in depression

A shitshow of a Saturday 29072023

It’s pouring rain again and my head is ready to explode. I didn’t sleep well. I woke up around midnight and stayed up playing on my phone until like 4am. My head hurt and I kept on dreaming weird shit. I got up around 8 to have coffee thinking that would help but it didn’t. I went back to sleep where I finally slept a good sleep except for dreaming something weird. I woke up with another headache and feeling hungry. I made a couple of eggs with cheese and had some juice and another cup of coffee.

I was going to go out today to pick up my prescriptions but it is raining so damn hard. I am not going out into it. I am glad the Sox are on the West coast otherwise there would be no games. They were still playing when I woke up around midnight. I think the game got out around 1ish. We won.

My therapist still hasn’t sent me the letter I need for college. I am pissed. It has been at least three weeks since I told her I needed a letter. I understand she is busy but I really need this letter. I hope I can get it soon.

I feel like shit. I had a couple of eggs for lunch and now I am feeling nauseous. I think it is because of the migraine activity due to the weather. It is muggy even though it is raining. I hate it. I’m going to lie down for a few. I hope I feel better by the time the Sox play tonight.

If you won free plan tickets…#wpdp

by Midnight Demon, posted in depression

If you won two free plane tickets, where would you go?

I’d go to Canada and see my BFF

Aggravated

by Midnight Demon, posted in blogging, depression

I woke up and got up about 130pm. I have no power in my room. AC must have tripped the circuit or something did. No one was answering my texts. Finally my niece texted me and I got access to the basement. Tripped circuit. I fixed it.

Yesterday I saw my pcp. We discussed the headaches and she thinks it is migraine activity. Wants me to take a migraine med before bed to see if it helps. I had a hard time sleeping last night and didn’t have any dreams. She is also going to reach out to my neurologist about any meds I could try before I see her. I got an appt in Oct.

She checked my knees. Right is ok but the left might need an x-ray in the future. I need to use the diclofenac gel for pain.

I wasn’t able to make the last bereavement group meeting as I didn’t get home till 4pm. I said, in an email, it was ok to share my email if anyone wanted to reach out. There is another group starting in Sept. I might join it.

I got hot as I was wearing a Tshirt so I took it off. I am trying to cool off in my room. AC is on but it will be an hour or two before it gets cold. I have no plans for today. I just wanted to rest. My new Sox hat came in. I am so excited. The B has the pride flag colors for those that can’t see the pic.

I plan on listening to the game tonight. They are on the west coast again. Game time is like 2215 or something like that. They are playing the Giants. I hope I am still up. Hate west coast games.

done enough todaying

by Midnight Demon, posted in depression

Done enough todaying

I had a meeting with my sisters with the lawyer this morning. I didn’t want to get up but I thought I would have to sign papers. We just talked about what we want going forward with the house. Eventually I need to do a will, with a lawyer, so that if something happens to me, my sisters or my blood relatives know what to do. Then I did some more errands. My sister took me to one of the discount clubs so I could get more Ensure. This place had it cheaper than Amazon. I also got some chicken breast so I can make a roast on a day that is cooler than it is right now.

I ordered lunch like I typically do when I get paid. It was good. I missed taking my stomach pill this morning. It got wrapped up in the sheets somehow and I only found it when I was getting dressed. I was wondering why I was having heartburn. Now I know. I might make chicken tonight so that I have it tomorrow for lunch. Depends on what time I get home.

I see my pcp tomorrow. My knees have been sort of ok but going down stairs hurts me and getting up from sitting after like a half hour or so hurts. I got a wicked migraine yesterday with the storms that came in. OMG it was so brutal. Later that night, I got into a fight with my sister because I didn’t pick up after her kids. I was pissed off. Just stupid things. She said some awful stuff that I didn’t appreciate.

I am suffering from heartburn in a bad way right now. I had a spicy chicken thing at the club and my stomach is not liking it at all. Might have to take Mylanta. I am so tired from all the walking around the place. I walked over 3,000 steps today. Tomorrow I will be doing at least 4,000. I am not looking forward to it as it is supposed to be really hot, like 92. I don’t know what the humidity will be. I really hope it is a dry heat but that would be so rare for Boston…