Tag: baseball

dogs and baseball

by Midnight Demon, posted in suicide attempt

I helped my sister out today getting ready for my sister’s communion tomorrow. It wiped me out and I have been trying to nap unsuccessfully. I think I did finally snooze out only to get rudely awakened by the neighbor’s dog whose bark sounds like he has bronchitis. I hate this dog, but then I hate all dogs who bark loudly and obnoxiously. I am definitely not a dog person. But I can stand to be around them. I have dogsitted a few times in my life.

Right now it is just eight o’clock. My allergies are going beserk. I have not stopped sneezing but I feel like I am going to throw up because of post nasal drip. My foot has decided to turn bitter cold which means when it warms up I will be shrieking like a fool because it will be hot as hell. The pain will soon start because it is cold so would like to take meds but I don’t know if I can hold them down because I am so nauseous.

I would like to watch the baseball game but I am so tired I don’t think I will make it through the first inning. This will be the first baseball game of the season that I will be missing. I might hear it on the radio. I have not decided yet. It all depends if this nausea goes away and I can take my pain pills and meds. The hockey game is also playing tonight. Bruins and Toronto. I am not a hockey person. All I know about hockey is that you have to put the puck in the net. That is all! I don’t know the rules, the positions, na-da. Well, I know one position, the goalie, but then who doesn’t know that! I am a 100% baseball person. I might not know all the rules but I know how the game is played. I still have no idea what the numbers are for the positions. I don’t really care. Shortstop to 2nd to 1st for a double play is all I care about.

I hope my boys do well tonight. I know that I am probably not going to be able to really sleep without checking the score now and again. I tried last night to not watch the slaughter but I still kept tabs to find the final score was 7-0. I just turned on the game and it is already 1-0 Rangers. UGH!! I am trying to have confidence in Lackey but it is hard to do. UGH and it sounds like Lou Merloni is in the booth with Joe Castiglione. I cannot stand Lou. He over analyzes. And I hate it when announcers over analyze. Guess that is all for now as I can’t concentrate with the game on :-)

post 274

by Midnight Demon, posted in suicide attempt

I’m watching the game right now so I am going to make this quick. I didn’t do too much today. I slept most of the day. Was not intentional as my little nap took four hours. I was lucky that my crops I planted before my nap didn’t wither.

I have my appointment tomorrow with my psychiatrist. Nothing has changed. My mood still sucks and I still want to die. Pain has been ok until now. It is creeping up there both emotionally and physically.

Because I slept so much I feel kind of groggy. I don’t think I will have too much of a problem going to sleep after the game. I guess I had too much of an afternoon yesterday. I got sick yesterday while having my coffee and had to rush home with the bowels not cooperating with me. I guess it wore more out more than I thought it did. I hate when I sleep all day because sometimes I have trouble falling to sleep at a normal hour. I also didn’t get anything done. I had wanted to go over the Aeschi book again to write up the highlighted sections I had made. I find this book so full of information and it is really packed full. It took me a full week to read it through. At the time the book came out, I was in a suicidal crisis so it helped to read how to get out of it without using the hospital.

My therapist is on vacation next week. I have a full week of no appointment from her. I do have just one medical appointment which I am hoping to keep to find out more about my ankle. I just hope that she agrees with my neurologist that I have CRPS, complex regional pain syndrome and not a mechanical problem with my foot/ankle like my PCP believes. If it was it would have been healed by now with me not staying on it. But with this weekend is any indication, I know that being on my feet or standing for too long will aggravate my ankle/foot.

a mix of things

by Midnight Demon, posted in suicide attempt

Today was the last day of spring training at Fort Meyers and the Sox won. I love it. Would have been better if I watched but the stupid hockey game was on. I can’t wait for Monday’s game against the Skankees.

I was talking with a friend of mine when an idea struck. She is writing a book about her coin finding and I thought that I should do the same but about songs. I have a knack for songs finding me and having some deep meaning with me. Take for example Gloriana’s new single, “Can’t Shake You”. It is the perfect song of when my therapist left me and I couldn’t get over her. Or Rascal Flatts “the Broken Road”. I hear that and it makes me think of my friend Melinda who if she didn’t cross my path when she did, I doubt that I would be here today. I can write most songs that I listen to that have a meaning for me. I don’t know if this is just the crazy part of me but I know sometimes these songs talk to me.

Went to Starbucks today to have my Isla Flores, my Indonesian coffee that I absolutely love. This has to be the third or fourth coffee from that country that I like. I still have my Blue Java and they also have the West Java which I am kind of crazy about but it can be a little overwhelming with the aftertaste. I have switched to drinking my coffees iced and that has helped. I just wish I could make iced coffee at home without diluting it.

Of course the temperature today is twenty degrees higher than it has been all week and my back is paying the price for it. I keep on getting spasms in my back. I am so far resisting the urge to pop a pain pill as the sciatica is just about my breaking point. I am supposed to watch my niece tonight and I hope that my back cooperates. I’d hate to cancel on my brother in law’s birthday because my back is hurting.

A baseball movie

by Midnight Demon, posted in baseball, sports, writing

Since the end of the Post Season baseball games, there were commercials for the movie “trouble with the curve”. Tonight I finally saw the movie and loved it. Baseball season might not be starting just yet so I had some fun with this movie. I had no idea what went into scouting reports until I saw this film. And the movie is right, you can’t know something with statistics that you can’t see with your eyes. In his book, The Red Sox Years, Francona talked about this a little bit. He was given daily reports on scouting and pitching and upper management wanted the say in the lineup because this batter was better with the opposing team’s pitcher. Francona never really used these reports to influence his lineup. A player was going to play because he had a gut feeling and usually he was right. Statistics can only be on one playing field, paper. You can’t know what the player is going to do in rainy weather versus sunny weather, hot weather versus cold, etc. I think a lot of the games that have won the world series have become champions because they did not get rest in between series. My theory is that if a team cools off, say has a few days rest in between, that is bad and they are going to be swept. I have never seen a world series go to game 5 in the past 3 years. But I could be wrong. I know for the past 2 have been swept in 4 games, both to the National league. It has been a long time since the American league has won a World series game. 