rambling 061

I did nothing today. Tried to get caught up with my DVR shows that I recorded. Watched about four shows then got bored. I don’t know how I can watch four straight hours of baseball with no problem but can’t watch TV shows. I used to be able to watch them all night long. I don’t know what has changed. It is weird.

My mood has been quiet all day. I woke up around noon time. I had another bad night sleeping. I knew I was going to be in pain and kept waking up with it. Today, the pain is not so bad. I still hurt but it is manageable. I will be going to bed soon anyways. Think I am going to read a little until I pass out.

My mother baked all day so the house was full of baking smells. She made my birthday cake and some other goodies. I was able to talk her into getting a pizza for supper. She said that is my Christmas gift.

I think the extra mood stabilizer is helping. I knew it would. I have not been agitated all day or hyper/restless. I do have to take my night time meds soon. I can’t believe the day is gone. I don’t know where time went. I did help my mother with some of the baking, but other than that and watching my shows, I don’t know where the day went. I don’t have anything to do tomorrow. And I am dreading Monday.

I got to find my DVD case. I want to watch “It’s a wonderful life”. It’s my favorite Christmas movie, right next to the “Christmas Carol”. I am going to see if the Patrick Stewart version will be playing this year. I might have missed it but I am hoping it will be on now that it is closer to Christmas. It is probably the only version that I have not seen.

My viewership is down the past few days. I barely have made twenty views a day. I am kind of saddened by this. I was doing good for a while, getting close to thirty and now it is next to nothing. My viewer from Taiwan hasn’t viewed my blog in the last week or two. I hope that person comes back. I like when I get international followers.

I have not heard from my writing friend over the last few days, ever since we said we were going to take a writing break. I hope it is because of computer problems and not my response to her email. It is strange not hearing from her. She could also be having problems with her email so I just sent it to another email, just in case there is a problem. Or maybe she is just too busy to respond to my emails. That could be it too.

I am worried about two friends. If they are reading this I hope they know that I think about them frequently, even if I don’t always call them. One is about to have surgery and will be temporarily become a quad. I am worried what this will do to his mental health more than anything. The other friend is having family issues and mentioned in an email that she is thinking of taking her life. I don’t know what to do. I know she emails once a day so I am hoping to hear from her tomorrow. I haven’t seen her on Facebook today but my news feed is so clogged with my games I might have missed her post if she posted. Even on my phone I am getting games feed. I never used to before the stupid fucking updates and other Facebook changes they have made. I can’t hide the feed because then I won’t be able to get rewards. But I hope my friend is ok and hasn’t done anything rash.