going against orders

I’m not supposed to be writing this blog because of doctor’s orders, but I just read a blog that got me thinking about writing.

The blog I just read was about anxiety. She talked about how she had an anxiety attack while doing her civic duty. It was bad enough to get her excused from being a juror. She didn’t plan on having the attack, it just came on suddenly and she realized she needed help. She also took a break from her blog for a month to get herself together. I met this woman through twitter and she is normally a funny person. She does silly things and make me laugh. I have never suffered anxiety to the degree she has. I am mostly depressed. But hearing her suffering made me feel bad for those with anxiety. I know it is terrible. I am not saying I am an expert. I only had three anxiety attacks in my lifetime, the full hyperventilation and feeling like you are going to die feelings.

I wasn’t going to do much today but I did some stuff anyways. I got my prescription for my antibiotic and then went grocery shopping. That wore me out. I came home, ate, and then took a nap. I have been sleeping on and off most of the day. My friend called me about two hours ago. He called to tell me he got my book and started reading it. I think he felt deceived in that it is not a happy book. But then, I never said that it was a happy book. The title alone says that it has to do with my suicidal career with mental illness. It doesn’t say that I am bringing up rose gardens. My book is like my blog, raw and sensitive.

I got a few more twitter followers today. I am almost up to 140. I would say that is a good number for me. I didn’t realize that you couldn’t post the same tweet on twitter. So I have had to be creative in my posting about my book. And to do so with 140 characters is a challenge.