waking up with more back pain

I realized I didn’t have my quote of the day so I just posted it. I don’t know what I am going to do when I am finished with this section of the book. I have been slowly reading it to get more quotes but nothing is “popping” up at me. I might have to get another book and start from there.

My back still hurts. I woke up and found myself sleeping on it. Then I really couldn’t move. It’s a little ginger when I twist or try to stand up but it is getting better, I think. Last night, I ordered a sandwich and only had half. I think the rest of it is going to be my breakfast. It’s pretty good, turkey breast with avocados, bacon, and cheese on sourdough bread. It’s the first time ordering a sandwich from this place. I usually get their burgers, but I wasn’t in the mood for a burger. Their burgers are huge and I wasn’t that hungry. I haven’t eaten much all day. Taking pain meds and muscle relaxants most of the day kind of kills your appetite and everything else. I haven’t gone to the bathroom in two days. It’s going to suck when I go. It always hurts when I go, another reason why I want to be dead.

I still want to get my blasted donuts. I am determined to get them, even if I have to crawl. But my walking isn’t too good. Even going a short distance in my house, say from the living room to the kitchen, hurts me. I don’t know how I am going to make it down the street. I might have to take the bus. The rain has stopped so I don’t understand why I am still in pain. It should have stopped like a switch going off. I just don’t get it. And the temperature is still “high”. It’s in the seventies now. Weird weather for October.

It’s weird typing on my old laptop. The keys are a little differently spaced. But I am getting the job done. Pats won last night 36-7. I am so happy for them. They have yet come into an opponent they have competition with. It’s been fun to watch though. I didn’t see the game as I was in la-la land because of my meds. I took them early because I didn’t want to get up again to take them. I am glad that I fixed them in my pill box because otherwise, I wouldn’t have taken them all. I would just take the important ones and screw the rest.

I still need to get a haircut. If my back is doing better later today, I will try. I also will bring a copy of the NYT article with me to show it off to the barbers. I don’t know if they would be interested but I don’t mind bragging a little bit. I hardly get to brag.

I’m going to get that sandwich now and then hopefully get back to sleep.