Midnight Demon

day 3 of the new year

Mon,3 Jan,2022, 18:19 by Midnight Demon, posted in depression

Day 3 of the new year

I woke up at 4 this morning and have not gone back to sleep. I am hitting my napping hours but I am going to try and stay awake as it is close to my bedtime hours. I ordered McD’s because I need comfort food today. I made a cheesy scrambled egg sandwich with hot sauce for brunch. Other than coffee, it has been the only thing I have eaten today. I just feel really low.

My therapist got back to me. We can keep our time. I don’t have to change it because it is virtual. My PCP’s office gave me a scheduling ticket to test for Covid. I will be doing that Saturday. I don’t know when the results will be back because of the weekend so probably Tues I should I have results. It will be the PCR test. My PCP’s RN who answered my message skipped the part about what to do with my blood pressure meds. Idiot. I responded and am still waiting for an answer back. My blood pressure was lower than it was yesterday but diastolic was still 90.

When I woke up this morning to pee, I had a sneeze attack when I came back to my room. I kept on thinking I got Covid but I think I just have a cold because all I have had the past three weeks have been the sniffles. No other symptoms. There is a lot of dust in my room so I am not surprised I am sniffling. I am too lazy to dust. I hate dusting. I need to dust my ceiling fan but I haven’t figured out a way to do it with one arm. There is no way I can raise my left arm the way it is right now. I can’t even put my arm behind my back. My Range of Motion is still off. I hope I can have it back. I sent a message to the PT about not seeing her this week but haven’t heard back yet. One time I got a message from her at like 2330 so I am not worried about when she will get back to me. She is a little odd but she is a good therapist.

I cleared out my inbox early this morning. I have no more clogging email. I just have one email in my box right now for a reminder for my catheters. My arm is sore and I really haven’t done much today aside from the exercises and keeping moving within range. All the muscles in my upper arm are sore and a couple in my forearm hurt as well. I haven’t mentioned to PT about the forearm. There is only so much to do in 45 mins and my upper arm muscles hurt more than my forearm muscles. I have to skip PT this week because of the Covid diagnosis. Fricken sucks. In three days, it will be three months since my fall. I am entering my third month of PT for this fucking shoulder.

new year new positive

Sun,2 Jan,2022, 17:10 by Midnight Demon, posted in blogging, COVID19, CRPS, depression

New Year new positive

So my nephew is positive for Covid and so we need to isolate for the next week or so. I will have to test one of these days but I am not sure where to go as the place I went to in the past is closed. I will have to call my doctor’s office and find out where to go.

I have been going through my inbox trying to clean it out. I have 48 unread messages, down from 60. I also have been sending read mail either to the trash or to read mail for archive. I haven’t gone through all 100+ emails yet but I am sure by day’s end, it will be cleaned up.

I plan on reading more this week. I have less than 100 pages in the Medical Apartheid book I am reading. I can’t wait to be done with this book because it is so sad and angering. I plan on reading Rory O’Connor’s book When it is darkest next. It is about his suicide research and about suicide in general. I heard it was good and I have followed Rory’s research the past several years now. He is based in Scotland.

I still need to do my meds for the week. I got to call my pcp office tomorrow. I don’t know who will be prescribing meds for me from now on as my PCP has left the practice. I don’t know if I will need to be seen because my heart rate has been in the 100s the past few days. I have stopped the new meds and my blood pressure was high this morning. I will have to check it again tomorrow and see what it is.

The new box of catheters I opened has a lot of defective caths in it. So far there have been five in the box. I took a pic of the lot number I plan on sending to the company when I am done with it because there may be more in there that I don’t know about yet. I have an appointment with the uro NP this week. It will be good to see her to check in. Things have been going okay so far. I still have the bladder pain when I empty but I guess that is just something I have to live with. I am glad I got my uterus taken out so I don’t have to guess anymore where the pain is coming from.

My shoulder pain has been mild the past few days. Taking Excedrin has been so helpful. I cannot put on sweatshirts/hoodies. It hurts too much to pull the shirt down. I also hurt when pulling up my pants so I got to be careful about how high I go. I cannot scratch my left boob or side without excruciating pain. I am glad I have a back scratcher for my back itch. I am glad it is settling down some. Still two weeks before I see the surgeon.

I think because I have been taking extra pain meds my CRPS pain has been down. My ankle hasn’t been as flared up as it usually is. It will still get cold and I will have to wear socks to warm it up and keep it warm.