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I just spent an hour reading an article on hope and interpersonal theory on suicide. I have no idea what the hell I read. The article was confusing and the terms they used were not something I was used to. Maybe that is why the paper was over my head.

I’m still having problems with my laptop. I was hoping that it will go away but it doesn’t look like that is going to happen. The lid has to stay in a certain position or it’s either all fuzzy or blank. The 26th can’t come soon enough.

I was going to go out today to Starbucks but decided not to go. I wish I did because my mother did a huge shopping and guess who had to bring up the groceries? My ankle is so upset with me and I just want to go to sleep. I made a strong cup of coffee because my sister wanted some. I don’t think I added enough water to the coffee ratio. But then, I am just used to making one cup. Despite drinking this strong coffee, I am still sleepy. I really need a nap. But I know that if I do,

I used the last of my household blend so now I can get my Pike grounded up when I go to Starbucks, most likely tomorrow. I need to get out of the house for more than twenty minutes. I went to Walgreens and got my prescriptions. That was the only time I left the house. I also got Combos but instead of getting the sweet and salty kind, I got the buffalo and blue cheese flavor. Definitely not the same taste! And it’s wicked salty so I don’t think I will be eating the rest of the bag. Maybe I will leave them in the front yard so the birds can eat them.

I keep expecting the mail to come but forget that today is a holiday and it’s not coming. I am so hoping what I am expecting comes before Friday. I am still on the fence on going to this wedding. I technically didn’t receive an invitation; my mother just put plus 1 on her invite. But I have a feeling she is not going as she hurt her knee last week. I doubt she will be able to get into my sister’s truck. Course, my going depends on whether I can find something to wear and if my pain levels aren’t like they are today. I want to find my blue dress shirt. I have the tie picked out, I just need a shirt to go with it. I also need to hope this shirt still fits me. I hate gaining weight.

I will have therapy tomorrow. I’m not looking forward to it. I sort of know how it’s already going to go. It’s the same every time I get upset with her. She gets all business like and doesn’t talk during the session. But then the next session, things are back to the status quo. Drives me nuts. And it’s too late to cancel session because of her stupid 24 hr rule. I am just so sick of therapy. I really just don’t want to talk to anyone, period. I lost faith in the whole “talking therapy”. I am just so jaded to it. It just has become something to do during the week. And I know I am not going to find someone close to me that I is within walking distance that I can actually walk to meet face to face.

I got a response to my rocket player issues on my phone. They want me to restart the database, which would mean I would lose my new playlists that I created since getting my new phone. I had a hard time remembering which songs went with which playlist so had to start from scratch. Now that I have them close to what they were on my other phone, I really don’t want to erase the information and start anew. But if the app keeps crashing like it has, I will have no choice. It’s been stable the last 48 hours or so. But I haven’t used the Bluetooth connection during that time. Maybe that was the problem.