Can’t do anything

Can’t do anything

I tried to go out today and failed. I wanted to get my prescription and a snack at Walgreens but my back was just hurting too bad. I don’t know what I did. It started when it rained and it still is hurting be, even though the rain stopped. I haven’t eaten anything all day except for the left over sandwich from last night. But that was at 0530. I haven’t eaten nothing since then. My mother is cooking so I just have to wait for it to be done. She is making fish and sweet potatoes with spinach I think. I don’t care, I will eat anything at this point. I also have not had anything to drink. I was able to make myself a glass of ice tea but that was all. I will have more when supper is ready.

So much for walking down the street to get donuts. I have been thinking about them all day but I am still hurt with my back. Maybe it is a good thing that I can’t have them right now.

I finally got the October issue of the Suicide and Life Threatening Behavior journal. It has an article about CAMS and I can’t wait to read it.

I just got a call from my PCP’s office. They wanted to talk to me about a medication I requested to get filled because I don’t take it every day. Long explanation shortened, they need to talk to my doctor and then possibly see my neurologist. I don’t understand what the problem is. I have been on this drug for years now and never had a problem getting it refilled. It just frustrates me. It’s not even a narcotic so why there is trouble refilling it, is beyond my understanding. And of course it is Friday so I won’t have any answers until next week. I am glad I called when I did because I might run out before this is settled.

I am so tired and I haven’t done anything all day. I wish I could say I slept but my mother was fucking calling me every two hours to see how I was. I should have turned my phone off. Now my back is hurting me more because I attempted to go out and had some dinner. I just want to sleep. And read Harry Potter. I hope my back is better by tomorrow. It sucks not being able to get around.