two and a half hours of sleep

Two and a half hours of sleep

I think I have set a new record of sleeping. I only got 2.5 hours of sleep and I feel like I am good. Maybe the hypomanic stuff is back. I don’t know. I don’t feel euphoric. I just feel awake, like I just had a cup of coffee (I didn’t). I just had a bowl of cereal because I didn’t want to cook anything while being so sleep deprived. Later, if I am able to catch some more sleep, I plan on making my turkey bacon and egg burrito with Jalapeño cheese. I came up with a terrific plan for lunch. I will make a turkey, stuffing, and cranberry sauce sandwich. I find that meal planning helps to keep me focused. And it also allows me to eat as I have a hard time deciding what to eat.

I watched “The American President” before I went to bed. I love this movie. I have seen it three times since I bought it. I might watch it again today, just to kill sometime. Today is my rest day, though I do have to mail something so I do need to get out of the house. I can’t believe that I have left the house nearly every day this week. Next week I will be out three days, dealing with my father. It’s going to be tough.

I keep thinking about what to write and I can’t think of a damn thing. I emptied my email. I now only have 4 things in my inbox. Everything else I either deleted or put in my “read mail” folder. I am happy about this because I had almost 700 emails in my inbox. Now it’s all cleaned up.

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G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about. also writing about my daily struggle with chronic pain and how it affects my suicidality

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