Lab work is back

Lab work is back

I just got my lab results. My potassium is low but it could have been lower had it not been sitting around all day in the lab. I am so mad that I didn’t drop off the bloods myself. But as I am no longer an employee in the hospital, I can’t do things like that anymore. Thing that makes me wonder if the labs were accurate is because my CO2 level was also low, which probably means the cap was off the top for a while before the tube was analyzed. I am not happy about this. But there is nothing I can do, and that pisses me off.

I have been trying to get settled down to get some sleep but my brain is angry. I know nothing will probably get done about the result other than possibly to eat a banana or something. I don’t like bananas unless they are a certain type of ripeness. That is the only way I will eat them. I emailed my psychiatrist about the lab results. I didn’t tell her the labs were sitting around all day. I probably should have. I really miss her though. I don’t know when she will be back in the office. She hasn’t answered any emails from me, but then she is probably busy.

I fee tired but I am afraid that if I go to bed now, I will wake up around midnight or a few hours after midnight. I doubt I will be able to sleep past three o’clock. I never took a nap because I just wasn’t tired or sleepy, despite taking my pain meds. I thought for sure my meds would knock me out but I was wrong. Must have been the espresso I drank that kept me going. I took my night meds so hopefully that will cause some sleepiness. I have been up almost 20 hours. That is a long time. I probably won’t do anything tomorrow. I hope I don’t have to go to my father’s but I have no idea what the stupid VNA is going to do about his meds. They called me again and the nurse from Sunday left no messages for the nurse today. So I had to repeat everything and go over everything once more. Idiots. Then she has to call the PCP to verify what I am saying is true. What the hell you asking me for?? I am so damn annoyed.

I should probably read something. That always puts me to sleep but sometimes it wakes up my brain. I had to shut the music off because it was giving me a headache. It was also annoying me because I didn’t know what I wanted to listen to. I must have skipped several songs before shutting it off, three of them from Bon Jovi and I love listening to them. I am just worried that my potassium is what is causing all this stuff to happen to me because I haven’t been eating right. I ate tonight but now I feel like a cow. I am so bloated. I probably won’t eat anything tomorrow. I seem to be skipping days. The appetite is just not there. I am surprised because I took some gabapentin Saturday so I was expecting to be ravenous. Something is wrong with me and I don’t know what it is. The NP didn’t want to blame it on the depression. She just called it stress. I was too out of it to argue with her. It had been at least 12 hours since I last had something to eat when I saw her so was in and out of being hungry. Surprisingly, my blood sugar was within norms, though it was high for fasting at 92. I have been trying to get my sugar lower to at least between 70-80 but it hasn’t been working for me. I just hope my A1C levels are normal. I don’t think I can handle being a diabetic.

About G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about
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7 Responses to Lab work is back

  1. Not to worry about the fasting glucose. Normal range is 80-110. If you got below 80 you would be shaky and feel faint, if not actually faint.

    Are you a lab tech? You know how to properly (and improperly) handle samples.

    • I worked as a lab assistant for 14 years before they considered me disabled because of CES. I picked up a few things in those years

      • Aha! I bet you know a whole lot of things 🌞

        It’s so depressing that we don’t get to do the work we love, because we are disabled with these damn things that are totally unpredictable. Might feel OK one minute, on the floor the next. No justice in it.

      • Also seen a lot of cool things as well. Remember when I started working there someone literally coughed up a lung or a piece of it. Was so cool to look at it.

        Agreed. Being disabled just sucks

      • You can have your lung. I started out as a lab tech, and in those days we did everything. I worked the graveyard shift alone, and one of my lovely jobs was to plate all the various excreta that came out of various orifices. I was OK with everything but sputum. I retched over those damn sputum samples!

        The best thing I saw was a case of malaria on a blood smear…at Beth Israel! Dude!

      • Yea I don’t do mucus or phlegm or vomit. I’d pass it along to the supervisors. But this was just tissue not fluid. It was so cool. But it was the days before cell phones had cameras.but the image is stuck in my brain

  2. manyofus1980 says:

    I am a diabetic, type 2. I hate it. I’d love to be able to get rid of it. If I lost weight I probably could. I am finding that tough the losing weight. XX

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