Election 2012, some thoughts

I am the least political person on the planet. Yes I sort of pay attention around presidential elections and watch the ads for this candidate and that but for me to tell you anything beyond that, I would sound like the biggest idiot on the planet.
You learn a lot about your friends during elections. Their opinions on this candidate or that, find out about their political party, etc. This election has been a long process. Seems like it went on for four years despite it being only maybe a year of campaigning. But what gets me is the ads. I have never before seen such contradictory ads for each opponent. This one says this but then their campaign refutes it can says the other person is to “blame” for this or that. It was very sickening. Made both candidates look like neither one should be in office. Unfortunately, one had to be in office. To take leadership over this country, though lately I am wondering why as the country seems to be run more by Congress than a president. Few people forget that that the president can’t start a war. Congress has to declare it. If a bill comes through, congress has to approve it before it can be “vetoed” by the president. It’s our congress people and representatives who run this country and sadly, they do not have a term. I can’t remember when there has been four Senate names on the ballot. I can’t remember when there was more than two representatives on a ballot, and I have been voting for the last eighteen years. Shouldn’t the people that represent us have terms? Just because they were voted in once doesn’t put them there for life. I saw that former Mayor Capuano was on the ballot again for representative. His name was the only person. He had no one running against him. Maybe that is why these congress people and state representatives always get re-elected. They do not have anyone running against them. And if we are a people, by the people, for the people, shouldn’t there be more people fighting for their constituents?

a little about politics and suicide attempts

6-Sept-12

I write the date as the European way because I think it is much better than the “American” way.  I have been battling a migraine for the past few hours and it finally has let up. I am wondering what to write in this blog so I’ll just run through my activities for the day. I picked up my niece from school and then watch iCarly and Spongebob. I have to say that these shows have grown on me but more so because I think Sam is a hot shit and wicked funny. Spongebob is just too stupid to be funny but I watch it anyways because it makes me laugh sometimes at the stupidity of it all.

I then began a synopsis of the long ass article of escape from self by Baumeister. I will be talking about this for the next few blogs as it is important for me to vent out. He writes about suicide attempts and the need to escape and I agree with his idea of the escape theory. High expectations of self that lead to either minor or major failures will always lead to suicide attempt or worse completed suicide. There is no real predictive model for this. The high functioning adults will not seek help because they feel it is beneath them or they just think they are too smart to be In therapy.

What gets me with this article is that it is right on the money in every respect that I have always felt when feeling suicidal. I want to escape from myself because I just feel like a failure. My deconstructed self has no where else to go but to oblivion.

Writing this out has helped me understand more about what he is saying and putting it in layman’s terms will help others I am sure of it. I know it will boost my attempt paper once I ever go back to it.

After writing and watching idiotic shows, I read some of the American revolution. This book is taking me forever and I don’t think that George Washington is ever going to make an appearance in this book though the author seems to think so. We are at the battle of Breed’s Hill (though historians have called it Bunker Hill, which is inaccurate apparently) in Charlestown and Howe has just ordered another assault on the rebels. I think it is still hysterical that the English people think this was all just a rebellion and the American people were found on radicalism.  Wish I could say the same today but I don’t know what American stands for anymore. It has suffered more with the loss of economy and now the presidential election has two morons worse than the other. It is difficult to see who is going to win but if Congress is republican, most likely we will get a republican president because after all congress does run this country not the president as much as he likes to think he does. If calling for the budget is any indication, course after my cousin’s email about the falsehoods of the electoral commercials, I am not so sure which way to vote now. DO I want change or do I want things to be the same for the next four years,…I am not a political person so I may have no idea what I am talking about and I am ok with that. If you are not then I suggest you leave the blog but then this isn’t about politics. It’s just that all the word on twitter tonight was the DNC and so I had to write a little about this because it’s on my mind. I am worried about where my country is headed. I don’t know what will happen I just know I am fearful of what will happen and I guess that is where my suicidal feelings come in. if I don’t like the way the election pans out I can always kill myself because it is my right as a human being and no one can tell me otherwise. As long as America is a free country, I think that is my belief that if I don’t like who is elected after I voted for someone, I think it is my right to die because I know the next four years will be hell and I’m not going to like it so why should I live through it??