Bitch rant
I have to complain about my game that I play consistently, on a daily basis, a few times a day. I love that this game gives you missions to complete but now they are getting ridiculous! For even the missions have missions. And you need the help of your neighbors to complete them or you might as well kiss the mission goodbye. I have opened other Facebook accounts just to play this game and then I realized the other day that I am just playing against myself! But unless you have a “neighbor” to give you all that you need every day, there is no other way to win the game/mission. Unless you spend money on the game for horseshoes. I used to do that when I was working. Now I pick and choose when to get horseshoes. I know none of this is making sense because I don’t think anyone plays Pioneer Trail on Facebook but if you do, don’t start. I have a lower level account and finished ONE stinking mission and got NINE, 9!!! In its place!!!
Talked with my therapist today. Though I don’t know if you want to call it really talking. She was quiet today. So I was too. Weird how that worked out because usually she is excessively talking about something. We talked about the transgender issues again and she pulled a name out of a hat, another doctor for me to see. I told her she doesn’t get that I don’t want to see any more doctors. I am DONE seeing doctors. The only one that I want to see if my primary care doctor and that is it. I don’t want to see any of his colleagues either. Unless I develop another fricken problem, I am not seeing another doctor. I know this doctor is different and will help with the transgender stuff. But there is a chance she could be another bitch that refuses to listen to me and then where will I be? What if she deems me too suicidal and decides that treatment for transgender is just too much for me. I can’t go through that type of rejection. It will kill me.
We also talked about the consultant. I wanted her to have him as a support and she only wanted to hear that I will see him again. Well I can’t because I can’t afford him, not with my insurance. I hate my insurance but I have to make do with it. But I can’t see an out of network doctor and this consultant is that.
I don’t remember what else we talked about. I really wasn’t in the mood for talking. I just wanted to go back to sleep. I have the same time appointment tomorrow to talk with her. Yay…not.
I didn’t work on my book today. I felt like crap too much to do much of anything. I didn’t even make myself coffee. I should start psyching myself up now to maybe leave the house tomorrow and get coffee. I knew that having Keurig cups was going to be the death of me. Why should I leave the house when I have coffee at home. And I have two different flavors of Starbucks coffee. I have the house blend and my Pike’s coffee. Both are sooooo good. But I need to get out of the house. I have been in since Saturday, maybe? I don’t even know the last time I left the house, oh dear. That should tell you something…And tomorrow is Wednesday. So almost three days in the house. I don’t think I have showered since Sunday.
And to make the day worse, my favorite catcher for the Red Sox is now going to a National team, the Marlins. Great. Now I got to deal with the likes of a guy’s name I can’t even begin to spell. You say it Perninski, but there is a z and J in there somewhere. I have to look it up and I am too lazy.
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