Saturday Blog 50

Saturday Blog 50

I woke up in severe pain in my foot this morning. It started off as a cramp and escalated to pain. I have been sleeping most of the day because the pain meds make me sleepy. I feel okay now. Pain is still there but it’s at a much tolerable level, say a 3 or 4 on a scale of 1-10. Only things that I ate today was a tuna sandwich and an Ensure. I think I am going to have another Ensure for my dinner. I don’t feel like making or having anything else.

My brother-in-law is a fink. Our bathroom heater fan went yesterday so he says “it’s too hot to use that is why it’s not working”. No, dumbass. It will work despite the heat because I have accidently turned it on the hottest of summer days. The thing is broken and you are just too lazy to fucking fix it. Unreal. When I heard that explanation, I was pissed. I still am.

I found the grief counselor’s card in one of my jeans pockets. I will give her a call Monday sometime after my psychiatrist’s appointment. I want to make sure that my psych is on board with me talking with her before I call her.

Today just sucked. I really didn’t do anything but sleep and have weird dreams. My last dream, I was at work and I was supposed to get all the money counted and sorted for send out. This is weird because the lab where I worked, was a blood lab. We did not deal with money. My cousins were in the dream as well. They were emptying their purses that were filled with coins. I remember feeling overwhelmed in the dream because people just kept on adding to my workload and the guy that left me in charge didn’t leave me any wrappings or anything to bundle the money to ship out. I was worried that the destination where this money was going to be sent would be rejected and I would lose my job over it. Strange dream.

I think I got everything I need to get for my grocery order. I got some grapefruit as it has been a long time since I had some. I also got some ground beef as I want to try and make a Bolognese sauce. It will be the first time making it. I hope it comes out good. I also bought hamburgers and avocados. I really can’t wait to have the burger the way that I am imagining it. I just wish I had some onion rings to go with it.

I returned the DVD from NetFlix. It was the only time I went out today. It was really nice out. I should have went to the Square to have a coffee. They came out with a new Brazil lot that is pretty good. I want to try it iced the next time I go to Starbucks. I don’t think I am going to buy this kind for home. I still have plenty of the other Brazil coffee and Pike’s.

About G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about
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One Response to Saturday Blog 50

  1. manyofus1980 says:

    enjoy making the food with the groceries you ordered. glad the pain has lessened now. xxx

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