Sunday Blog 12

I woke up later than my usual time, at 0700. I had to use the bathroom as I was dreaming about going pee. While I was up, I decided to have two Ensures. Bad idea. It made me sick. Luckily, I kept everything in my stomach and was able to get back to sleep. I just woke up a little while ago. I made a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. I put more jelly than peanut butter and I didn’t enjoy it as much.

I am listening to the ball game. I wanted to watch it but my mother is hogging the living room TV and I don’t like to watch it from the kitchen. I tend to get the munchies. This is the first time all season that I am listening to the radio. I wanted to see what the new guy sounds like. His name is Tim Neverett. The Sox are playing the Indians at Fenway.

My ankle is a little better today than it was yesterday. The temp is ten degrees cooler than yesterday. There is supposed to be rain over the next few days but so far it remains dry. I just hope it doesn’t rain Tuesday as I need to be out and about. I will be going south of Boston to meet up with some friends for a school concert and then dinner.

Tuesday needs to get here pretty quick. I am running up a grocery bill as I keep on adding stuff that I want. I was going to order ice cream but it’s not on sale and I am not spending $5 for a pint. I still am debating on getting chips. I think that is the only junk food I haven’t ordered.

I need to fill my pill box for the week. I hate doing it. But it’s better than being in the hospital because I have less pills in the box than what they were giving me. I think I counted at least 20 pills at night versus my home pills of 14. This is because nearly every drug had at least 2 pills to go with it. At home, I just take one pill, except for one of my blood pressure pills. I have to take 2 pills.

I have had the munchies since I woke up. Now I feel bloated. I mostly had fruit and vegetables so I don’t feel guilty about eating. I just had a lot in a short period and my stomach is not used to so much food at once.

I have been in a good mood today. It is strange because I also feel sad at the same time. Yesterday, I got a card from my father’s PCP’s office. The coag RN sent me her condolences of the loss of my father. I thought that was nice of her. I have been thinking of my father most of the day. He usually came over on Sundays for dinner. Tomorrow will mark four weeks that he has passed.

About G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about. also writing about my daily struggle with chronic pain and how it affects my suicidality
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One Response to Sunday Blog 12

  1. manyofus1980 says:

    wow is it four weeks already? how time flies. It doesnt seem that long ago. Glad sunday was a better day for you. enjoy the concert on tuesday. xx

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