Which activities make you lose track of time?
Social media browsing. I can get lost in Twitter.
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What bothers you and why? #WPD
What bothers you and why?
Oh do I have enough webspace for this question?? Heat is my current bother. I hate summer. I hate humidity. I am grateful to the inventor of AC or I would be roasting right now and that isn’t pretty.
On edge
This morning, I woke up from a bad dream. It was a culmination of stuff I’ve been reading on social media the past few days. Unfortunately, it involved my friend and her kids and so was that more upsetting. I had to take an Ativan. There was a pt that kept wanting to talk to me but I didn’t feel like talking. He then swore at me. I blew him off. He started swearing at staff so security was called and he was brought to another room. Long as he was away from me that was all I cared about.
I met with the doc. Told him to change the migraine med to a prn order rather than have it as a one time dose. I don’t know if he will as I am leaving tomorrow.
My knees have been bothering me for more than a few weeks now. I asked my pcp’s nurse to change our appt to in person so I can see my pcp about it. I am really scared as knee problems run in the family.
I told my sister I would pick up some burgers for dinner tomorrow night. I’ll also get some coffee pods as I think I have just one left. I’ll also have to get half and half.
I am reading a suicidology book and it is not as interesting as I thought it would be. Not sure I am going to learn anything new other than finding out what is meant by Qual and Quant research. Chapter I am reading now is about Indigenous populations so it is interesting. I might finish reading the chapter today. There is nothing going on today.
In a grumpy mood
I’m in the hospital. I’ve been here since Thursday. The depression and grief were just so overwhelming that I didn’t want to live anymore. So before things progressed to a bad place, I got evaluated. Sleep has been an issue so we are working on that while I am here.
I had a difficult night sleeping. For some reason dreams hurt my head and give me severe headaches. Not fun waking up to them. My foot also flared up (CRPS) around 0530 so I had to take pain meds. Then I was pretty much up and didn’t go back to sleep. My BP and heart rate were up this morning. I’m not surprised. I have been working with a friendly LGBTQ nurse the past few days. She had to give me my T shot today and they ordered it for the glut muscle. She was good. The only thing that hurt was the pinch of the needle.
I’ve had three cups of coffee today, all caffeinated. Has not helped my headache. Hoping tylenol will. I have been using diclofenac gel for my knees and it has helped so much. I haven’t been doing stairs so still not sure if that is a problem for me. At home, stairs would hurt my knees going down. Going up, not so much. I do stairs a lot when home because my room is above the living area.
I hope to be going out today for some fresh air. One of the MHS’s will be taking me. Depending on how well she knows the hospital, I might give some history. I did the last time I went out. It was cool for me to speak about it. When I leave, I want to take some pics of the current construction so I can remember how the Bulfinch is right now. I love that building so much. It was built by my favorite architect, Charles Bulfinch. He has a place in Rockport that I really would love to see. The place is I think 1.5 miles from the commuter rail stop, which is too far for me to walk right now. I might take an Uber if I go this summer.
I went to a webinar yesterday. CAMS care hosted Dr. Thomas Joiner and his theory of Interpersonal Theory of Suicide. It was very interesting. I learned a lot and got my wheels turning. I might write about his theory in a future blog. He is coming out with a new book in Jan/Feb and I can’t wait to read it.
There is another pt here who is trans. I am glad I got to meet them. I hope we can stay friends after the hospital.
I am tired. I hope today goes OK. Also hope this fog I am in dissipates. I am going to try sumatriptan to see if it helps this headache. Could be migraine activity as it has gone on for a few days now. I just feel shitty. I went outside and it is nice out. Hot but a dry heat. Not too humid.
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