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The things I find out through my blog and other thoughts

by Midnight Demon, posted in Bipolar Disorder, blogging, chronic physical pain, depression, mood disorders, suicide

The things I find out through my blog and other thoughts

I know the internet has free content, for the most part. Any one can take anything from it. Pictures, articles, blogs, and the like. Today I found out that my New York Times article was republished through a suicide prevention network. http://tspn.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/05/CYHM-17.pdf. I am no longer anonymous in my writing like I thought I was. I wrote to the network to tell them although I am flattered by being on their cover of this issue, I am also dismayed they did so without my knowledge, consent, or permission. I mean, they could have sent me a tweet or tried to contact me through my blog or something. I shouldn’t have had to find out through my own blog that this was published. It just pisses me off.

I am feeling better after I had my nap but now I can’t sleep because I napped. My stomach is still kind of queasy. I was kind of looking for a snack so I had three Oreos thins. I wanted more but didn’t want to push my luck. I feel ok but I am still kind of hungry. I am not going to eat because I don’t know what will happen. I didn’t take my night time dose of Zoloft because I want to see how I fair. If I don’t get sick after I eat an evening meal, then I know it’s the Zoloft making me sick again. I am going to take it easy tomorrow and try not to eat so much at once, even though I really didn’t. I just had a sub and some fries. I shouldn’t have eaten it because I wasn’t hungry to begin with. But I hadn’t eaten anything since 0900 so I had to eat something. I am going to eat the same things I had today tomorrow and see if I get sick. If I don’t, then I know it’s the Zoloft. If I do, then I know it’s what I am eating.

I got my pens today. For some reason, I was very excited about receiving them. I guess I am happy that I have them because one of my pens ran out of ink the other night. I had to replace the ink with the pen I just bought because I didn’t have refills. I plan on buying them on my next Amazon order. I should be banned from ordering on Amazon. You can get pretty much anything and everything. I just got like 6 items and it’s almost 100 bucks. Granted one of the items is a $50 book, but still. I can really go to town when I am on the website and I am bored. I usually save the items for later. I hope that my food processor and new watch isn’t caught in the storms that are affecting the Midwest. I am supposed to get them on Monday and I hope that I do.

Mohammad Ali passed away tonight. Seems 2016 is taking a lot of good people. I am glad that my father, though he wasn’t the best of people, is not alone. I never wrote up the story. Maybe I will after I finish this blog. I am wide awake anyways. It will give me something to do. I just hope that it doesn’t cause me to have PTSD symptoms.

On a Natural High

by Midnight Demon, posted in Bipolar Disorder, blogging, depression, mood disorders

On a Natural High

Last night, I got an email that was filtered to my junk mail folder. I was about to delete it when I read the subject line “couch”. For the past three months I have been emailing the NY Times my blog post on the love/hate relationship in therapy. I checked the email address to see if it was a real NYT address and sure enough it was. Holy fucking cow, they responded! It was the very first email that I sent back in July! The editor thought the piece was “pretty amazing”. He told me that I should stay tuned with some thoughts. I didn’t think nothing of it other than maybe that was the standard reply to something when an article is in consideration. But he got back to me within an hour with some edits and I couldn’t believe it. This was going to happen. I was going to be a contributor to the New York TIMES! I just finished sending in the paperwork today and the article is set of online publication on Tuesday. I don’t know when the article will be hard print. I just emailed him and asked as my mother would love a copy of it rather than the online version. I am so excited, happy, nervous, and giddy it’s not funny. I had an email conversation with my psychiatrist about this. I sent her the edited version of the article. She said that it was excellent, like she told me before. If I could do handstands and flips, I would be doing them. The editor got back to me today and said out of the 45 articles he has edited, my post is his favorite. He Googled me and my book is going to be listed at the end of the article. I am going to have publicity on my book! I am so damn tickled. I am glad I am an author!

Yesterday was a disturbing day for me and today has been somewhat normal. The past 24 hours have been a rush! I cannot wait to see my piece printed. It might be on the front page of the Times webpage when it comes out. I just found out it will not be in print, as in the newspaper itself. I guess this series is only an online thing. If the hypos I was feeling weren’t happening, I am sure this news would have cured my depression, least for a few days. My psychiatrist wonders what the readers are going to respond to this article. Tuesday cannot come fast enough. It will be in the morning, like 0330! I just checked when other posts have been posted. I will have to set my alarm so I can send a mass emailing. I will also post it on my blog for that day.