Twitter Rant 01.10.2015

by Midnight Demon, posted in Bipolar Disorder, depression, mental illness, mood disorders, suicidality, suicide, suicide attempt

People seem to think that my writing of suicide is what leads me to think about suicide. It’s quite the opposite. It helps me to think of ways to control my suicidality and work against the dark feelings by expressing myself in a clinical way. By me thinking of this as clinical, it helps me compartmentalize the feelings so they aren’t so powerful that I do impulsive things. But then I am fighting the stigma that talking about suicide, leads to suicide and that is hurtful. By my writing about coping with suicide I not only free myself of the thoughts, but I may also help someone in the process. That is my goal when I share my papers about Edwin Shneidman and David Jobes. Their work about psychache and CAMS (collaborating, assessment, and management of suicidality) really help me focus on not killing myself. If we talk about suicide like we do cancer survival, maybe we might decrease the suicide rate. if suicide wasn’t a taboo topic anymore, there might be some healing and actually lead to more discussion and openness.

9 thoughts on “Twitter Rant 01.10.2015”

  1. I talk about suicide openly and yes, people find it shocking and ‘bad taste’. I don’t necessarily mean talk about doing it (I know I never would) it’s more about the constant suggestion of it. Anyway, good post. I get where you’re coming from. I find the same- once written it’s passed. The writing is a good thing but it scares people.

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  2. I totally get this. In my darkest moments the darkness has no words.
    A glimmer of a lift comes with the ability to express it – for me. For an unprepared listener my words might seem alarming or me talking myself down to the abyss……… that all happened in silence.

    I like your blog.

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  3. I usually ignore the comments or just push them aside. But this time it really got to me so I started tweeting about it. next thing you know I had a paragraph worth of stuff so decided to blog about it. There were more tweets, but I went off topic of the original rant.

    thank you for your feedback. it means a lot, even if it was ranting. šŸ™‚

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  5. Here is the deal: people have very antiquated thoughts that no longer work and frankly have never worked. We don’t get better by hiding our thoughts, and we don’t get worse by talking about them. I really hate that mentality. It’s so outdated and harmful. I believe talking / writing is one of the best things one can do to sort through the madness.

    My therapist told me something important: “If the practice doesn’t put you in danger, but helps you cope or feel better, then do it.”

    Don’t listen to anyone telling you differently. Talking about this also helps raise awareness that suicidal thoughts are a real, legitimate issue many people struggle with. I think suicide only gets talked about when someone actually dies, when it’s too damn late to talk about it.

    “Before you think of harming yourself, talk to someone,” but at the same time when you do talk, “Oh, you’re only that way because you keep talking about it.”

    *major eye roll*

    I’m so sorry for ranting on your comments, but I feel very passionately about these blockheads. You just do your thing and tell them to stick it where the sun doesn’t shine.

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  7. Nope lol. My boss’s mom is from there and she spent her summers there. I just like their swear words lol. And yes I saw Ellen’s reply. Same thing. Just crazy. Knowledge is power!

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  9. Agree with you there. It goes along with the argument from the conservative religious right wing claiming talking to kids about sex will make them more probe to having sex. Bollocks!

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