Random Thoughts on a Saturday

I woke up kind of late this morning, which is unusual. I slept through the night for the first time in forever. If I didn’t have to pee, I probably would still be sleeping. I tried to go back to bed afterwards but I had a sneeze attack and that was it, I was up. I brushed my teeth and made coffee. I didn’t feel like eating so I just went back up to my cool room and drank my coffee while trying to figure out what I was going to do for the day.

So far, I started reading “The Cuckoo’s Calling”. I read the first chapter. It was meh. Nothing to interesting, so far. Then I got another damn sneeze attack. I had taken Benedryl last night because my allergies have been so bad. I guess I got to take some more as I am getting miserable, sneezing my head off.

Baseball game isn’t until four. I am not sure what I am going to do until then. I really would love to walk to the community pool and have a dip. Only problem is, I don’t think I can walk that far, even though it’s down the street from me. And I am sure it will be crowded and I hate crowds. They just make me uncomfortable.

I am running low on coffee and cream. I don’t think it’s going to last until my next pay period, which is going to suck if I can’t make coffee. I might have to ask my sister for some cash to cover me. I need my coffee! I am running low on my Starbucks funds too. Luckily, I don’t have to go out there until Monday. I am glad I bought my commuter rail tickets in June or I would be screwed. Monday night I will be going out with friends for dinner. I am looking forward to it.

Today is slightly cooler than it was yesterday but still fucking humid. House is so damn hot. I have been running the AC almost continuously all week. I am not looking forward to when the electric bill comes in. It’s an older AC so takes a lot of juice to run, even though it has an energy saver function on it. I never use it because once it reaches the cooling level it shuts off. Then when it turns back on again, it scares the daylights out of me. Not good for someone with PTSD.

Last night, I was talking with my cousin. He had regular coffee and it got him all wired. I never knew he always drank decaf coffee for this reason. I was talking to him late at night until he calmed down some. He was appreciative of me talking to him. It was a long time since we talked. I don’t think we talked much since his cat died some time ago. It was good talking to him.

I need to shower sometime today. I don’t know if I will need another shower after I take one as the humidity is so high. I hate the heat.

About G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about. also writing about my daily struggle with chronic pain and how it affects my suicidality
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One Response to Random Thoughts on a Saturday

  1. Ugh, I can’t stand heat and humidity. That’s one reason I travel. If I don’t like the weather, I can pick up and go somewhere else!

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