Hot and humid Monday

Today is no different than yesterday. Only exception is there is a chance of thunderstorms tonight. I am meeting up with some friends for dinner south of Boston. I can’t wait to see them again. We always have a fun time.

I have been sleepy for most of the day. I even had a double shot espresso and I’m still sleepy. I hope it kicks it on the train. I know it’s because of the weather. I hate hot and humid days. 

Last night I thought I was going to die by sneezing to death. I must have sneezed for an hour and a half. I have no idea why. I took some Benedryl and that seemed to work better than the Allegra. 

I had a couple of weird dreams while I slept. I think it’s the first time I dreamt in months. I did wake up in the middle of one so I think that is why I feel so tired. I woke up with my shoulder hurting because I was using it as a pillow. I hate when I do that. 

I meant to call the PT place this morning but I was a sleepy head. I’ll call tomorrow. I really need to do something for my right ankle. It’s starting to hurt more while walking and I can’t have that. It’s bad enough my left ankle is bad. I can’t be incapacitated by both. I will be miserable.

This is the first time leaving my mother alone since her hypoglycemic episode. I hope she will be okay. I’m going to text my sister to call her so someone will check on her. I really don’t want to come home and find her passed out. I’d feel so guilty.

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G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about. also writing about my daily struggle with chronic pain and how it affects my suicidality

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