People seem to think that my writing of suicide is what leads me to think about suicide. It’s quite the opposite. It helps me to think of ways to control my suicidality and work against the dark feelings by expressing myself in a clinical way. By me thinking of this as clinical, it helps me compartmentalize the feelings so they aren’t so powerful that I do impulsive things. But then I am fighting the stigma that talking about suicide, leads to suicide and that is hurtful. By my writing about coping with suicide I not only free myself of the thoughts, but I may also help someone in the process. That is my goal when I share my papers about Edwin Shneidman and David Jobes. Their work about psychache and CAMS (collaborating, assessment, and management of suicidality) really help me focus on not killing myself. If we talk about suicide like we do cancer survival, maybe we might decrease the suicide rate. if suicide wasn’t a taboo topic anymore, there might be some healing and actually lead to more discussion and openness.
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Long Distance Phone Calls and Twitter
It’s been a few days since my last blog. I think I have run out of writing material. I just have been so down that I just can’t write. Nothing interesting has happened other than I finally got my phone fixed. I took off Google Voice and that seemed to bring me back to the Sprint network. I was able to connect to my friend in the UK but the connection was stinky. Half way through I got disconnected. I was pissed. Then she ringed me back and we talked some more.
I also talked with my friend from Canada. I miss talking with her so much. But she is back working so doesn’t have the time she used to to chat. We talk mostly through Facebook chat but would love to call her again.
Went out for dinner tonight. Had a glass of wine. I still feel lightheaded. I am a light drinker. Dinner was ok. I have had better Italian food. Even the brownie sundae sucked.
Been tweeting my country radio station most of the evening. I just think they are so awesome an there hasn’t been much tweeter traffic so I am tweeting away. I’m probably annoying the DJ, LOL…But he did play Downtown by Lady A. I love this new song. I can’t wait till it comes out on Amazon so I can download it, legally of course. I don’t believe in downloading illegal stuff. It’s just wrong to do so. I know people that do it but I don’t.
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