Frustrating events of the day

I might have to watch live TV tonight. I wanted to record the show “Coat of Many Colors” but it conflicts with Bones, as Bones is a 2 hour episode tonight. It all depends on if I am awake at 2100 and the pain meds don’t knock me out before then. I had another bad outing with my father. He didn’t pick up his prescription so I had to do extra walking with my leg and back hurting. I decided to get us cold cuts for lunch as I knew he didn’t have lunch, and by the looks of his trash can, he didn’t have breakfast either. What really pissed me off was that he took his meds with wine, but he swore it was ginger ale. Doesn’t matter as I saw him pour the wine while he was eating lunch. He drives me crazy. Then he wonders why he is dizzy.

I then talked to my therapist while I was on my way home. I asked her to call me because I felt like doing something to hurt myself. I am just so fed up with things and so damn tired of being in pain. I told her about my appointment yesterday and I could tell she was cussing because she was speechless yet grunting, like she didn’t know what the hell to say. If I had seen my PCP yesterday, things probably would have been different. My back pain is worse today than it was yesterday. But I did a lot of walking that I normally don’t do. I went to the bakery to get my father his bread then went to Walgreens to pick up my meds. The walk pretty much tired me out. I had to stop a few times because I was hurting so much. This was before going to my father’s and standing in the deli counter, walking to the opposite end of the store to get to the pharmacy, then walk back to his apartment. After we had lunch, I stood a few more minutes to do his meds. Then I had to walk to the train station to go home. My back and ankle is not liking me at all. I shouldn’t be in this much pain for walking a few blocks and a half.

We also talked about having my PCP’s office call me sometime tomorrow for the neurosurgeon’s assessment. Ten bucks says I am not going to get a phone call and when I do call the office, I am going to get, why didn’t you call him? UGH. Because I was told YOU were going to call ME. My therapist asked what I was planning to do between now and the next time we talk. I told her I wanted to be in oblivion. Wrong answer. I did tell her I was going to take some pain meds and call it a day. Sadly, I can’t really be in oblivion because I have to babysit Saturday. I also made dinner tonight. I don’t think my mother was a fan of it. It was a roll up of turkey and stuffing. We also were supposed to have cranberry sauce but we didn’t have any. I thought it was good, but then I am a sucker for turkey and stuffing anyways. It’s one of my favorite combinations. I found out that one of my new favorite delivery places has a turkey, stuffing, and cranberry sandwich. I cannot wait to try it. I hope it’s a regular menu item and not a seasonal one. Starbucks has a similar sandwich but it’s only available during the holiday season.

This morning on our Red Line, it was found that the train was being operated with no operator. No one was hurt but it caused severe delays for the morning commute. Someone apparently tampered with the system. Then my mother was telling me that the operator got run over by the train. This I didn’t hear and I still haven’t heard anything about this, least in social media. I don’t watch the news and I no longer follow news related Twitter accounts because it’s too triggering for me, especially when they talk about the alien people. I will have to look up what really happened. But I am too tired to do it now so it will have to wait.

After a week of waiting for my Amazon order, it finally arrived today. I get to watch baseball movies and a couple of 80s movies. I also got the movie “Code Talkers”, least I think that is the name of it. I don’t have the DVD in front of me so I am not sure. It’s a WWII film about the Navajo Indians using their language as code. I’ve always wanted to see it. Sadly, I have only seen the ending of the movie, not the beginning.

I finally was able to transfer files from my phone to my SD card. I now have a whopping 1GB of memory on my phone. I also wiped my MP3 player after doing this so that it could delete the duplicate songs on it. I don’t know how I had two of the same songs in almost all my albums. And I couldn’t delete them for some reason unless I deleted them on my SD card, which I thought was odd. But I couldn’t access the SD card on my phone so that didn’t work. I hope things are settled now. All I have to do next is rebuild my playlists because it doesn’t save those. I have to remember what list went with the songs. Oh well. I think after the day that I had, I will save that for another day.