colds suck

Colds suck

I had to go to the pharmacy to pick up my meds and also some more Nyquil. I thought I had an unopened bottle somewhere but I can’t find it so I just bought new bottles. I also tried to get gift cards for my family but I misread the damn cards and I didn’t want to go back to the stand when I just wanted to go home and rest. I just got to get them for my kids and I will be done. It’s weird not getting anything for my father this year or worrying what to get him.

I haven’t had anything to eat or drink today, nothing substantial. I had a piece of my sister’s cinnamon roll apple pie. It was good. And then I went back to sleep until I woke up to go to the pharmacy. I should make the Shepard’s pie but I really feel like crap and don’t want to be on my feet. I got a splitting headache. I also picked up some more ibuprofen as I am out. I hope it helps my headache.

The only thing I really need to do is fill my pill box for the week. I set my alarm for tomorrow’s appointment as I need to be out of the house by 0700. I swear if the doc gives me crap about my weight, I’m just going to say I don’t give a shit. I have other things to worry about than losing weight. I’m so sick of skinny docs giving lectures about how you are supposed to lose weight when you have to be a certain way. And for what? I have always been a heavy person, though in my mind I think I am skinny (toss it up to body image issues). Even if I was 80 pounds I would still have pain and back issues. Being thin isn’t going to solve my herniated disc issues. Yes it might make them less likely to explode on me but they might just do it anyways. It’s just so annoying. Yes, I would love to fit into a 34 waist again, but that will take some work and frankly, I don’t think I can do it unless I seriously starve myself.

I have a busy week so this cold needs to go away. I’m going to rest some more before my mother calls me for dinner.

About G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about. also writing about my daily struggle with chronic pain and how it affects my suicidality
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4 Responses to colds suck

  1. manyofus1980 says:

    I think your therapist has some really big issues to be honest, LOL

  2. G. Collerone says:

    That’s the way I feel. I am somewhat comfortable with how I am so who cares that I am overweight. What bothers me is that when I tell my therapist I’ve lost weight, she acts like I shouldn’t lose it. She is a real weirdo when I talk to her about these things.

  3. manyofus1980 says:

    I’m with you on the losing weight. I am heavy too. Over 200 pounds. I’ve been working on losing weight but damn its so difficult. i’m happy the way I am so whatever. hope the cold is gone now. xxx

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