Puppy with gigantic green dinosaur stuffy
Another boring day in the life of Midnight Demon
I have been in a funk since getting up this morning. I had to go to the bathroom so I did that then had my coffee. As I greeted my mother, fricken post nasal drip caused me to gag. I think I got to start using the Flonase again. I do well without it and then allergies cause the drip to come back despite taking allegra. My sister came up during her break and we talked for a bit before she had to leave. She is working from home and only had fifteen minutes. She said she would be back for lunch. I haven’t even had breakfast yet. I just drank my coffee without eating something. I wasn’t in the mood to eat. I still am not.
Yesterday I sent off some messages to my doctors and they all responded today. My pcp doesn’t think the fatigue I am having is caused by thyroid. He thinks it is because of chronic pain. That really soured my mood. My psychiatrist sent some well wishes and support. I had asked if my uro still wants to study my bladder and she does. Fuck. I was hoping for a no for that. Found out that the doctor I have the same time and day as my TG doc is the resident working with her. I don’t know why they scheduled me with both the resident and attending. That is weird.
I got my meds yesterday. It was cold so I changed into a heavy sweatpants. I was sweating by the time I came home. I had taken a shower and now I need another one. My mother has the heat on and I woke up sweating. I had turned off the fan because it got to be 65 degrees in my room. I like it when the temp is 80 outside not when it is 45.
I reluctantly brushed my teeth and shaved my head today. I don’t know what I am going to do with the top of my head. I need to see the barber but I am broke this month. I might be able to see him if I can finagle it. Need to wait for a couple more checks to clear.
I don’t have any plans for today. I am really tired so I might just nap. I went to bed early last night and still woke up a few times during the night. I hate that I can’t sleep through the night anymore. Then I am wondering why I am tired all the time.
Therapy and shoulder pain
I was so damn tired today. I only woke up twice during the night. One to pee and the other because of shoulder pain. My med alarm went off and I wanted to throw my phone across the room. I shut it off but didn’t get up until an hour later when I had to pee again. I took my meds and used the bathroom. I was still tired so I just went back to bed. My hip was hurting me from the dampness. I didn’t wake up till almost twenty minutes before my therapy appointment. Yikes!
I quickly made a cup of coffee as I logged on to my laptop. Shoulder pain had calmed down. Therapy started a little early and we talked about dating as I joined a dating app and have been talking to someone. We talk about how great it is but at the same time I am apprehensive about them dealing with the medical side of me. It is very complex and I am on a lot of meds for the different conditions I have. I just am worried they are going to see me (if we meet in person) and I am going to be a turn off because I won’t be what they imagined I would be. I never thought someone would be interested in me because I am so hard with my esteem issues. We also talked about my shoulder issues. I told her the conflict I have with back PT and shoulder PT. I said that I want back PT because if I can’t move there is no way I can do shoulder therapy. She was okay with that then asked if I do the exercises outside of therapy. HA! I do them. But not usually all of them. The PT I have usually gives only three or four exercises rather than like 10 so it is easier to remember and do them but they will be the same exercises I have been doing for the past twenty years.
After therapy, I took a shower and shaved. It was the first time in a week that took one. I have been shaving but not showering. I still have to get my haircut. I am thinking of just getting it down to a three. I just am scared because I might end up shaving my whole head with it that low. I never done that before. I have had my hair really short, like whiffle short before but it has been a while since I have had it that short.
My lower back has been bothering me most of the damn day. Weather sucks. I don’t ever remember a year where we have had so much rain. It is going to be cloudy and rainy all week. I am just glad the temp isn’t colder or we would get snow. That would really suck. I don’t have to go out except to the pharmacy to pick up my meds. I hate to go out in rainy weather. I used to love it. I rather have a cloudy day than sunny. My back does not like the rain though.
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