Saturday Blog 68

Saturday Blog 68

I had a terrible night sleeping so I just slept all day and had weird dreams. I dreamt that my house was turning into a 5 bedroom house and it was just my mother and I living there. I ordered a new mattress for my bed and decided that once it arrived, I would clean my room by moving it to one of the other rooms, basically switching rooms. But it never happened because I had to pee and woke up. Oh well. Nice to have a dream like that.

My mother is making a fish cacciatore, which I do not like so I ordered Chinese food. I would go to the basement for pizza but I just don’t feel like it. Chinese food is like my comfort food. And I finally found a good restaurant that makes decent General Gao. I have ordered it several times now and it is always perfect.

I cannot wait for the construction to stop at the house across the way from me. It’s basically the house that is at the far end of my backyard. I didn’t think they would work on a Saturday but they are. Fuckers.

I was hoping to write a blog about that article but I just am not up for writing anything except this. I am really tired and think after my food comes, I am going to go back to sleep. It’s kind of weird that I haven’t needed any pain meds today. I hope that is a good sign. But then I have been resting all day. I was supposed to go to a birthday party tonight but I really needed to rest after yesterday’s run around and stress.

Tomorrow I will go to the pharmacy as I never went today to pick up my prescription. I think I will drop off the other prescription I need filled so they can sort it out on Monday and then I should have them by Tuesday. It’s so ridiculous that I have to wait to get these pills every single time I get them filled.

I am going to try and bake tomorrow. Depends on how my sleep goes tonight. Right now my damn foot is acting up. Nebraska and OSU are playing each other tonight so I won’t be watching the game. I know it’s going to be a nail biter of a game and I don’t know who to root for as they are my favorite teams. I actually bought a Nebraska fleece pullover today as I don’t have any apparel.

My mood kind of sucks right now. I hate being in pain. I am fricken cold. The temps are in the 50’s but it feels colder than that. I just put on a long sleeved shirt. I’m probably not going to be able to nap now that my foot is acting up. The pain is getting worse. I just had more Chinese food as I got hungry. I really didn’t eat today. I pretty much just had coffee. And then I fell asleep. Coffee hasn’t really done much to keep me awake these days, not unless I have more than one cup. But that would involve cleaning the French press and then making another cup. Too much work, LOL.

I’m going to take my meds early tonight, including my pain meds. I am going to need them to help the throbbing in my foot. I just hope it doesn’t keep me awake all night. It will suck.

About G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about
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One Response to Saturday Blog 68

  1. manyofus1980 says:

    Now I want Chinese food. Its a comfort food for me too. Glad you enjoyed that. xxx

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