random 15112017

Random 15112017

Today was my sister’s birthday, which concludes birthday month for my father’s side of the family. There are more birthdays on my mother’s side than I know what to do with. November, I guess, was the month to be born. I didn’t want to go downstairs as I felt crummy and I was in pain. I didn’t go to sleep until after 0230 and pretty much slept all day.

Tomorrow I go for my bone scan. I hope they find something that leads to some treatment to decrease my pain. I’ve had enough of dealing with it. I will be at the hospital most of the morning and part of the afternoon as it is a 5 hour long test. I hope it is shorter than that but who knows. I won’t know until I am there.

I wanted to go to the grocery store but it was late when I got up and I didn’t feel like showering or going out. Tomorrow is going to rain. I just feel so fatigued. I barely have energy to write this. I just want to go to bed and never wake up again.

I got the song “one number away” going round and round in my head. So I have it on repeat now to drown out the noise. I hate it when a song is on repeat in my head.