Just a blah fricken day
I’ve been in a blah mood all day. I can’t seem to shake it. I had a good sleep. Taking the melatonin around 1900 and then taking my meds have been working out for me. I need to shave today but I don’t have the energy to do it. I wanted to cook chicken but I got my mother to do it. I emptied my recycle as tomorrow is trash day. I got a little bit of energy but it quickly went away soon as I caught my breath from the stairs. I just want to sleep. I had two cups of coffee today and it hasn’t done anything for my energy levels.
Today was T shot day so I took my shot. It hurt but so far hasn’t upset my thigh. I had to inject into my left thigh which is always a gamble on if I am going to get nerve pain. I didn’t even bleed so I saved a bandaid. I wanted to go out today but I just felt like shit. My arms are kind of sore from PT yesterday. My new weights were delivered yesterday and are still in the box. I will take them out tomorrow when I will workout for the first time. I am excited about it.
I wrote my therapist a message about wanting do to trauma work. I meet with her tomorrow and we’ll see what she says. I’ve been thinking a lot about all the shit I have been through. I think it is part of the reason why I have insomnia and bad/weird dreams.
I just had dinner and I feel so tired. I could go to sleep right now. I don’t know why I am so friggin tired. I hate feeling this way. It is a real struggle to keep my eyes open. Maybe I should have another cup of coffee. This is ridiculous.
Drained
I woke up around 430 this morning. According to my app that detects sleep, I was asleep for 5 hrs and 40 mins. I went pee and stayed up for a little bit. Around 6 I crashed and fell back to sleep. I woke up around 8 thinking I overslept for PT. I didn’t thank god. I had another cup of coffee and then made some quiche. It wasn’t as good as the BJ brand but it was ok.
At PT I did a machine for 8 minutes and then my PT massaged my shoulders and back. It felt so good. Then she had me do weights. I asked her what kind of stuff I can do with the 5 lbs weight as I bought two and she showed me some exercises. I am really excited about this because I really want to work on my upper body, safely.
After PT, I missed the bus home so took the bus to the Square to get Starbucks and a sandwich. I had a mocha with 4 shots espresso. It was so good. I forgot how good they were. It has been sometime since I had a mocha. I came home and tried to work on my blog but I was so tired. I took a nap. I didn’t wake up till my med alarm went off for my PM dose. I couldn’t really sleep anyway as my foot kept feeling like it was going to spasm on me so I kept moving it around to prevent it cramping. I had to go pee again and I just made it to the bathroom as my bowels exploded. That was unexpected. I did my business and then washed my hands really good as I was going to make dinner. I took some chicken out but I didn’t feel like cooking. My mother made a pasta dish so I was left on my own. I will make the chicken tomorrow.
I had a bowl of cereal. I wanted to make rice but I wanted some protein with it. I will make it tomorrow with the chicken. I feel so drained I just want to go back to sleep but my foot still feels off. I just took a Zanaflex to try and make it stop feeling the way it does.
Last night I took my night meds an hour later and the melatonin an hour earlier. I still didn’t sleep through the entire night but I got some good sleep. I am going to do the same thing tonight and see if that helps. I think I am going to be sore tomorrow as the weights were heavy as I was working with them. Plus going out afterwards wasn’t planned but I liked going to Starbucks. I wish I brought my bag with me.
Last night while cathing I had mucus come out of the tube and it shocked me. I never had this happen before so I asked a doctor friend of mine and she said it was ok as long as it doesn’t happen all the time. I am glad I didn’t have to call the urgent med line at my uro’s office because sometimes it is a long wait. I am glad it wasn’t a serious issue. I have been cathing all day and have had no problems. Grateful for that.
Sunday blog 01082021
I can’t believe it is August already. I will have my surgery in sixteen days. I can’t wait to have it because I have been having cramps the past few days and again I don’t know if they are bladder or uterine. My urge to pee has been great today so I haven’t cathed at all. It still hurts to go though. I thought a month of cathing would help and I was wrong. I am glad I haven’t got an infection. I have been careful. If I don’t get it on the first try, I will use another catheter. I have plenty so I don’t have to worry about running out. I just got my new supply order so I am set for the month.
I haven’t done anything today. I had my two cups of coffee and then my mother came into the kitchen to take her blood sugar and it was low. I gave her some juice and stayed with her as she made a sandwich. I told her not to take her insulin. She can skip a dose. After she ate and had juice her sugar went up to 105. I still told her not to take her insulin. It wasn’t high enough. For some reason her continuous glucose monitor and blood meter had different results, by forty points. She feels ok so that is the main thing. I’ll have her call her doctor tomorrow to find out why there is such discrepancy.
I have been sleeping with my new pillow and I haven’t been waking up in pain since using it. My neck still feels tight but it isn’t painful like it was. My back is aching. The weather has been cool so I don’t know why my back has been acting up. I should try the tennis ball to get the knots out.
I have another slow week appointment wise. I just have therapy and PT. I am going to try and go to Starbucks one of the days and hope I don’t get anxiety like I did before. It will be good to go out. Just hope I don’t have the sleepiness that I have been having lately. I have had to take a nap in the afternoon or early evening. It has been interfering with watching my games. Last night the Sox lost their third game in a row. I hope they will win tonight. Pivetta is on the mound and has been pretty good.
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