grumpy sour mood

Grumpy Sour Mood

I have been in a mood since I woke up this morning. I just feel hopeless that this pain that I have is ever going to go away. I have been dealing with it for a week now and it’s only bringing me down and down. Today when I woke up again in pain, I just said fuck it, and took some pain meds to go back to sleep. I had my mother make me breakfast. I wanted an omelet and I don’t know how to make one. I had it with toast as my appetite has been increased due to the extra Gabapentin that I have been taking. I thought about making coffee but knew I would be going to sleep soon so didn’t. I woke up in the afternoon. Pain was minimal so decided to go to Walgreens to pick up my prescription. I ended up getting some snacks and a yogurt. I haven’t had yogurt in a long time. It’s on my grocery list for next week I am glad that they had it in stock. Lately, whenever I want something specific, they don’t have it.

I didn’t go out today. I planned on showering but that still hasn’t happened yet. It probably will sometime tonight. I hope it helps this mood that I am in. I hate being grumpy. But being in pain takes a lot out of you, mentally and physically. It’s hard to keep up a good mood when you are feeling so lousy, not to say that I am in always in a good mood. I am not ever in a good mood for long. Probably as long as a good cup of coffee lasts. Then it’s back to the dumps.

I just checked my stats and looks like someone posted one of my blogs on Pinterest. I don’t even know what that website is about. And I can’t find out what blog it is because you have to sign in and I don’t have an account nor do I want one. It really bothers me when someone posts my work on another site and doesn’t bother to tell me. I don’t mind people reblogging my stuff, but when they post it outside of wordpress without my knowledge, I have a problem with that. I know it shouldn’t bother me because I have taken stuff and posted websites to Facebook or something. I can’t count the number of times I have used the Spoon Theory’s website to try and explain to people what it’s like living with a chronic illness. My blog is the same. They just take my website and post it. I just wish I knew what blog got posted so I know. It is just frustrating.

I tried my first check deposit by phone. I am waiting for it to go through. I hope it does or I will have to make a trip to the bank tomorrow, which will be no big deal, just extra walking. I have been weary of my steps since my flare up. Even now, I am hurting just walking to Walgreens and that is just a few blocks from my house.

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G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about. also writing about my daily struggle with chronic pain and how it affects my suicidality

6 thoughts on “grumpy sour mood”

  1. Hey grumpy! 🙂
    at least you are getting read, right? lol really though I feel your frustration. You’d like to get a heads up or be asked hey can |I post your work? I do realise that. Hope the pain is less now. XX

  2. So, Pinterest is this site where you like, make what’s basically a digital cork board where you “pin” photos or links of shit you find on the Internet and think is cool. You can have a bunch of different “boards” so it seems likely that someone pinned your blog to a board about mental health blogging/writing/etc. or something like that, but I couldn’t say for sure. Some boards are private and some are viewable to other members. Hope that’s helpful. I used it to store my cache of badass wedding cake photos before my wedding, but beyond stuff like that, I don’t really get a lot out of it.

    Anyway, I feel you on the drugging yourself back to sleep type of mood ‘n I’m sending my support your way, for what it’s worth.

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