Random 421

Random 421

Yesterday when I went to see my therapist in person, I gave her a snickers latte as she has never had one before. She loved it. It’s a really good concoction of caramel, hazelnut, and mocha. Tonight I had another meltdown. I was trying to get a second nap for the day when pain erupted and it sunk me lower than I ever sank. I texted my therapist that I was done and that I was sorry. I didn’t expect her to respond as it was late. About an hour later, she texted me back with a photo of the drink and a lovely supportive message. She is such a dork. I was appreciative of the text and it did help my mood.

I found my “Liar Liar” DVD and decided to watch it. I felt like a comedy would help me out of the pit I was in. It was funny to watch Jim Carey makes his faces. I have seen the movie many times and it cracks me up every time.

I want to sleep, but pain is keeping me up. My foot just will not settle down. I took some more pain meds. I also took another trilafon because I couldn’t remember if I took it or not. Then I watched Twitter and the Sox had a dramatic comeback and won 7-5. That really made my night. I thought they were really going to lose to the Skankees as they were down 5-2. But my boys scored 5 runs in the bottom of the 9th inning to win.

I never took a shower tonight. Mostly because the heater in the bathroom is broken and it’s kind of cool tonight. I didn’t want to freeze my ass off. I’ll take it tomorrow when it’s warmer out. Meds are kicking in faster than I thought so I will stop here, for now.

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G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about. also writing about my daily struggle with chronic pain and how it affects my suicidality

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