a midnight ramble about pain

A midnight ramble about pain

Guess what? I can’t fucking sleep. I am tired as all hell but my damn foot/ankle is giving me weird pains. I don’t know what to call them as it’s indescribable. I just know it hurts and it’s like it’s pinging because it will start and stop. Then my right ankle is curling up, by itself. That is painful. I had to take an Ativan to calm that shit down. I need to talk to my psychiatrist about this because I am not sure it is a side effect of the trilafon or if it is just a fucking nerve thing because of the nerve damage I have suffered. Either way, it’s not pleasant.

I am so glad my city has early voting starting Monday. I am going to get there, though I haven’t quite figured out how yet. I know where City Hall is but as I can’t walk there, getting there by public transportation involves buses. What fun that is going to be. And tomorrow I need to renew my disability pass for the T or I am going to be screwed come Monday as my pass expires on Sunday. I should have gone today but I didn’t feel like it. I will go tomorrow morning. I just pray they transfer the money that I have on the card to the new card. I don’t want to lose the money I have on it.

I joined a Spoonie chat this evening. It was good but very fast paced. It’s about dealing with life with disability or chronic illnesses. I met some interesting people. Some are able to work, others aren’t. It was a fun chat. Then I tried participating in the PTSD chat but it was weird. No one was commenting or asking questions so I left. I think they were watching a video of the chat and then commenting. I find it hard to tweet and watch so it was better that I left. I won’t go to that chat again.

I had to take some more Neurontin for my pain because of the weirdness in my foot/ankle. I think it’s some kind of nerve pain I am experiencing. I had taken 600 mg earlier tonight but I guess it wasn’t enough so I took another dose of 600 mg along with a pain pill. It was gross. The pain pill was bitter and the capsules of Neurontin have a weird taste to them. I should have taken them separately. Oh well, what is done is done. I know better for next time.

I have decided to grow my hair out or try to. I just need a trim right now. I hope the barber shop can give me one. Otherwise, I will have to see my cousin. I don’t mind seeing him but he smokes and then I stink of smoke afterwards. I hate smelling of smoke.

About G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about. also writing about my daily struggle with chronic pain and how it affects my suicidality
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4 Responses to a midnight ramble about pain

  1. G. Collerone says:

    the hashtag is usually a pound sign followed by the chat. For example, BPD chat would be #BPDChat. You would have to ask the moderator or use the hashtag to find out when that particular chat takes place. Sometimes, they have a twitter account for chat questions or concerns. There is a PTSD chat that occurs on Wednesdays nights, but I am not sure what time it would be for you. I forget when it occurs on my time until I get a message. I don’t particularly like it because they also have a video chat going on at the same time so you miss stuff. I can’t watch and tweet at the same time so it’s annoying!

  2. manyofus1980 says:

    How do you find the hashtag though, do you just look up different hashtags and see if any chats are going on I’m kind of clueless sorry

  3. G. Collerone says:

    you follow the hashtag or use tweetchat.com to follow it. It really helps to talk to others with the same condition

  4. manyofus1980 says:

    how do those chats work? do you follow a link on twitter to them? just curious. xxx

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