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All I did today was sleep. I just could not get my motor running and I really didn’t want to. My mother cooked bacon and I had some and then I went to bed. She made dinner and then I took a nap. Other than the few times I had to go to the bathroom, I haven’t left my room. I just have been sleeping.

I woke up in the middle of the night again so there was my first problem. I was in pain and couldn’t go back to sleep. I also woke up with the same pain and it didn’t go away. I have had it all day, which really made me want to stay in bed.

I had texted my former therapist to see how collection of my things were going. She said to pick a date as she was dragging her heels. I figured as much. So I picked the 24th to go out to get my things. It shouldn’t take me too long so I figure three hours on the zipcar should be enough to go there and back, provided there is no traffic. It was really painful to see her name in my text list again. I still miss her. I still want to text her that I have a new therapist but I don’t want to open a can of worms that I can’t close.

I got an email from my therapist after I emailed him a research article about a suicide condition I think I may have. He said it was good that I was thinking about these things but he didn’t have time to read the article and if I did want him to, to bring it in our next session. I’m not sure how I feel about this. It’s a long article and I don’t want to waste time with him reading during our time. I might just read it and then bring a summary of the article with me for him to read. I think that will be better.

I guess I have some homework to do before my next therapy session. I just hope something happens with it. Usually when I did work for the other therapist, it worked for that session and then got forgot about the next. That annoyed the piss out of me. I hope this guy is different.

About G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about. also writing about my daily struggle with chronic pain and how it affects my suicidality
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