bright sun shiny day

Bright sun shiny day

It’s 80 degrees or so and slightly humid. I hate it. I wasn’t planning on going out but I had to pick up my jeans. I figure I would also pick up a steak and cheese and some fries for my lunch. Before I even got to the tailors, my ankle started to have spasms. I was screwed. I had to walk really slow and I was sweating really bad. After the tailors, I went to the sub shop for my sandwich and fries. I carefully walked home as it was pretty bad. I was hurting.

I had my sandwich and shared my fries with my mother. They always give you more than a small. I hate to see what a large looks like. I was sweating and it didn’t feel good. I made an ice tea but diluted it with ice so it was mostly water. It was a big cup. I figure I would have some fluids to replenish my lost ones.

After I ate, I went upstairs to change. My ankle was hating me like never before. My t-shirt was soaked so I took it off and I dried myself with a towel that I keep in my room for that purpose. I am always sweating and I think it’s because of the chronic pain that I sweat more. Doesn’t help that today is a hot day. I think I am going to have my brother in law put in my AC tonight because the rest of the week is supposed to be just as hot. I had already took my pain meds around noon so I couldn’t take anymore. I can take my strong pain pill but I will hold off on it. I took an Ativan to quiet the spasms. If the pain gets worse, I will take the pill.

I read a chapter of Robert Lowell. I am trying to get through this book. I have 5 chapters left. I won’t be doing a review on it because I don’t like the book the way it is written. I think it could have been edited so that it wasn’t so big as the author repeated herself several times or the themes of the book are repeated.

I woke up around 0530 because my bladder woke me up. I was able to get back to sleep till around 11 or so. I made coffee and had a bowl of cereal. I really didn’t want to get up but I was hungry. My mother made bacon so I had a few slices.

The Ativan is making me feel sleepy. I think I am going to take a nap for an hour or so. Then I will get back to reading Lowell. I have nothing else planned for the day/evening. Nothing for tomorrow either.

About G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about
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2 Responses to bright sun shiny day

  1. manyofus1980 says:

    It was hot here yesterday too. I love the sunshine always makes me feel good. xx

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