Veterans Day 2017

Veterans Day 2017

If you are a vet or active service man or woman, thank you for your service. Also, if you are in crisis, please call the National Suicide Hotline at 1-800-273-8255 and press 1 to connect to a peer Veteran. You matter.

I woke up in pain around 7 and slept. Unfortunately, my mother wasn’t feeling good. She had let my cousin in the house and then got the runs. He woke me up to get clean clothes for her. The way he was yelling, I thought she was having a hypoglycemic attack. Scared me. I am glad she was not. She still has the runs so I gave her some Imodium to help. Hope it works.

My pain has been medium for the past few hours. I haven’t done much today other than sleep. I had a dream I was back in the hospital and my roommate was telling me she found her name and address in the yellow pages. I woke up sweating because it was really hot in my room. I still have the AC in my window. I would have my brother in law take it out but he hurt his thumb at work and can’t lift anything heavy for the next two weeks. I am going to try and take it out tomorrow when my pain is lower. I really would love to have an open window. It’s cold out but with the heat my room gets really hot because I have the door closed most of the time. Even with the ceiling fan on, it is hot.

A good friend of mine called me after I had dinner. She wants me to come down after the holidays, either with my other friend or by myself. Now that I think about it, I could go down there and make them some sauce. She was drooling over the pic of when I made it a couple weeks ago. I was thinking of making sauce tomorrow but I really need to change my sheets. I would have done it today but I was in too much pain.

I started reading Neil Gaiman’s Coraline the other day. As usual, it’s weird. I read 1-3 chapters as they are kind of short. I had made some tea after I had dinner, with the intention of reading but never got around to it. I am feeling really tired and just want to sleep. I have been sleeping a lot since coming home from the hospital. I think the time change is messing with me. I’ll get used to it after a while and then the time will go back. I just feel so run down, though not in a sick way. I think dealing with the pain constantly just wears me out.

About G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about. also writing about my daily struggle with chronic pain and how it affects my suicidality
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