9 Oct 16 Morning Blog

9 Oct 16 Morning Blog

I woke up early because I had to use the bathroom and now I can’t go back to sleep. I hate when that happens. So now I am thinking about food because I am hungry but I don’t know what to make. I know I want bacon and pancakes but I can never seem to make both because they are messy to make and I hate clean up. I also want eggs. I wish there was an IHOP near me. That would solve the problem because I could order what I want and not have to worry about cleaning the dishes and pans afterwards.

Yesterday, I got a reminder that my prescription was ready. I thought it was kind of odd because I didn’t put in anything for a refill. My doc called in the medication. I was bullshit because she didn’t write it as twice a day like I take it. She wrote it for once a day. I am so upset. She knows that me taking it once a day doesn’t work all the time and that I need a second dose. I have enough medication to last me until I see her next. And I am going to yell at her for not writing it the way I take it. I know she wants me to take it just once a day and I really wish it worked but it doesn’t. As long as I am not having side effects, which I am not, I am okay with taking it twice a day. I thought she was okay with it, too. There is some miscommunication and I hope to clarify it once I see her again.

It’s raining today. I don’t know if I am going to go out to get my pumpkin that I need to make my cake. I should have made the cake rather than the fluff. Oh well. I like the fluff but it’s too much and there is no way I can eat it all. I will be giving some to my therapist when I see her on Tuesday.

My back is still hurting me. I am getting spasms around my waist that really hurt and paralyze me with pain. It makes it difficult to move. It’s getting better as it’s not as painful but it still bothers me. I don’t know what brings it on as I never experienced this before. I hope it goes away soon. It’s not pleasant.

I have my football and baseball game today. I got to find out when time the football game it. I think it’s at one but I could be wrong. I know the baseball game is at 4. The baseball game is more important to me than football. If the Sox don’t win, their season is over and I will be sad. My favorite pitcher is on the mound today but he hasn’t had a good year. I just hope he doesn’t get walloped.

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About G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about
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6 Responses to 9 Oct 16 Morning Blog

  1. Paper Doll says:

    I’m up too early the day after my wedding for the same reason! I hate being woken up by a need and not being able to get back to bed

  2. manyofus1980 says:

    hope you got back to sleep. hunger may have woken you too not just the bathroom! 🙂 xx

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