Tag: depression

post op day 3 hysterectomy

by Midnight Demon, posted in blogging, depression

Post op day 3 hysterectomy

I am doing better. Pain and discomfort has gone down. I really need to empty my bladder or I get severe pains in my stomach with a full bladder. I have been lazy about it because I just don’t want to get up. I have been cathing right along. I was up during the night which made me feel sluggish this morning. I haven’t had a night where I slept through or got decent sleep. I haven’t been able to sleep more than three hours straight. Napping has been difficult. My brain won’t shut off and I can’t relax.

I am going to try showering today. I might use my favorite shower gel. I just need to be careful and not get the steri-strips too wet. I never had steri-strips before so I am not sure how I am supposed to shower with them. It is really hot in the house as humidity is at like 90%. I won’t be taking a long shower.

I got into watching Star Trek: DS9 on Netflix. They have all the Star Treks TV series on there. I am so excited about this because I miss watching the shows. Star Trek was a huge part of my life when I was a teen. It provided the escape my mind needed to get away from the abuse and dysfunction of my family.

My therapist hasn’t responded to the texts I have sent her. I told her I would be in touch when I am up to seeing her. Sitting is still difficult. I couldn’t make it through the ball game last night. I still have no idea how the Sox scored their sixth run. Hurricane preparations are underway as there is heavy rain expected. I don’t think there will be a game tomorrow or Monday.

post op day 1 hysterectomy

by Midnight Demon, posted in blogging, CRPS, depression, FTM

Post op day 1 hysterectomy

I am doing well. I am eating and drinking ok. My pain is manageable. I have more cramps than pain and more sore. I can sit up for a little bit before it gets too uncomfortable. I have been keeping a schedule with my meds and bladder. I seem to have to go every three hours or so until it becomes really painful. I am bleeding still so still wearing pads. I was wearing the underwear they gave me in the hospital and it didn’t hold the pad well so leaked onto my shorts. I had to change them in the middle of the night. I was up literally every three hours even without drinking a lot, just sleeping. The ibuprofen worked really good for the cramps. I got another order of it that my sister is picking up. They gave me Tylenol too but I have it so don’t need it. For some reason someone ordered citalopram so I had to call the pharmacy to cancel that order as I am not on it anymore.

I texted and emailed my friends. I also posted on social media. I was thinking of showering today but I don’t think I am up for it. I might just wash myself as I am pretty bloody and it is interfering with cathing. I don’t want a UTI. I have a little sore throat from the breathing tube they put in. Also have phlegm. It has been hard to cough it up because it hurts. I texted my therapist and said I will be in touch when I want to see her. Sitting has been a problem and then I need to lie down.

I took off the tegaderm bandages on my cuts. Taking it off hurt more than the incision. I have four incisions on my belly. They shaved me which I was not surprised. I was really hairy. I don’t feel bloated so I guess the gas has come out of me or I just am not aware of it because of the pain meds. I have been walking around the house so I think that has helped.

I need to lay down again so I will stop here but I just wanted to give a quick update on how I was doing. Thanks all for your support through this.

Surgery

by Midnight Demon, posted in blogging, depression

I don’t think I will be writing a blog today as I had surgery so here is a kitten. Ginger and white in color

nervous and just waiting

by Midnight Demon, posted in blogging, chronic physical pain, CRPS, depression, mood disorders

Nervous and just waiting

I got everything sorted out as much as I can. I think I will get up at 6 tomorrow so I can shower and take my meds. T shot has been given. It was a little bloody but it got done. I hate when I hit a vein. I am so nervous about tomorrow. I treated myself to a chicken, ziti, and broccoli dish and was only able to eat half of it. I haven’t eaten anything else. Nerves are too much. I might have an Ensure with my night meds as last night I took it on an empty stomach and felt sick. I am supposed to have at least 350 cals with the Latuda. Usually I have a big meal around 4-5 but I wasn’t hungry yesterday. I can’t eat anything after 10pm and then can only drink clear liquids until 830a tomorrow.

I had my last PT session today. She gave me some tips for after surgery. I really am going to miss her. She encouraged me to get PT after surgery once I am able to. She left it up to me as my doc said I didn’t need it. I can always get the order from my PCP. I picked up a thank you card when I was at the pharmacy to pick up my psych meds. It was the last of the meds I needed for the month. Everything else is all set.

I keep doing little things as I think of them. Like making sure I have a bag of Gatorade by the bed. It might be hard to bend down so I am going to put some on a shelf by the bed so I just have to reach for them. I haven’t moved the basket out of the way yet. I will in a little while. I am so fucking nervous and I am trying to calm down. Sox had a double header and lost the first game. Our bullpen sucks now and I don’t know why that is. It has been months since the sticky stuff ban so they shouldn’t still be bad but they are. Also doesn’t help that when bases are loaded and no one is out, no one can get a fucking hit. They will ground into a double play or have a pop out or strike out. Kills me hearing it. I don’t watch the games because sitting up hurts my leg.

I shaved after I showered and I think I missed a spot on the back of my head. I will have to go over it the next time I go to the bathroom. I like that I have been keeping up with the shaving. I don’t know if I will after surgery. Depends on how much pain I am in standing up. I am worried about post op pain. I have enough meds so I know I will be comfortable or at least I should be comfortable. I have a friend that went through this not too long ago and she helped talk me through aftercare. I am hoping to be numb for a while.