Father’s Day 2017

Father’s Day 2017

I woke up at 4 and it took a while to get back to sleep. Then I woke up around 0845 and realized my mother would not be going to my aunt’s so I figure I just get up and make breakfast. I made bacon and egg sandwich. It was good. Then I shaved my head before going back upstairs. I am trying to keep it close but I am not doing a good job in the back. I don’t see the barber for another two weeks for him to straighten it out. I really don’t want to dip into my savings for a haircut.

I’ve been thinking of my father most of the day today as it’s Father’s day and it’s the second year without him. It is still weird that he isn’t around anymore. I miss him more than I care to admit. My sister posted a video of him on Facebook and he was dancing as he was drinking a beer. That’s my father, always dancing. He loved to dance.

I’m not sure what the plan is for my brother in law. He wants to go to a specific restaurant so I don’t think there will be a something at home. My mother made him a cake. I don’t know why she does it as no one eats it and then she gets mad because it goes to waste. My sister has told her many times that no one eats cake but she doesn’t listen.

It’s really muggy today despite it just being in the 70s. I need to shower today so I might do it after I make coffee. I just plan on watching Star Trek the next generation DVDs. I watched two episodes last night. I didn’t listen to the game and I am glad I didn’t as the starting pitcher sucked. We lost 7-1. I was texting friends last night as the game was going on. I would have been swearing on Twitter a lot if I was paying attention to the game. I rather talk to my friends anyway. Game is on late again tonight. I don’t know who is pitching. I really don’t care as long as we get a win, but for that to happen, the offense needs to get runs. I’ll wear my hat and hopefully it will bring them luck.

I’m going to write down my concerns I have with my therapist sometime today. I was going to do it tomorrow but I think today is just as good. I just hope I can bring it up and talk about it with him.

I’m getting sleepy so I think I will shower and then make coffee. This way if the coffee puts me out at least I have the shower out of the way.

About G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about. also writing about my daily struggle with chronic pain and how it affects my suicidality
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One Response to Father’s Day 2017

  1. manyofus1980 says:

    I’m sorry today is hard for you. you did the right thing keeping busy and reaching out to friends. I cant imagine how hard it is to lose a parent. xx

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