long ass day and dental problems

Long ass day and dental problems

Because my medication alarm is annoying, I got up around 8 even though I didn’t want to. I took a shower and I was exhausted. I wanted to go back to bed but I really wanted to get my haircut early. I caught the next bus and found that the shop didn’t open till 10. I went to Starbucks and had breakfast.

Around 10, I went to the barber shop and got my haircut. I still had time before my psych appt so I went back to Starbucks for a coffee. Should not have done that. My heart was pounding by the time I saw my psych. Before I saw her, I went to my PCP’s office to pick up my prescriptions, least I thought there would be 2. There was one so I went back. The idiot medical assistant was confused about the two medication so only printed out one and of course my PCP wasn’t there to sign for it. I’d have to have another doc sign. I have to go back Monday to pick it up. I will run out by then. I am beyond pissed.

I talked a lot with my psych. I told her about the gender dysphoria I was having this week as my breasts seem to weigh a hundred pounds. I hate looking at them so I avoid putting my head down. It was awful showering as one was more tender than the other. I really can’t wait to have them cut off. Don’t know when that will be but I hope it will be within a good time frame once I start testosterone.

We also talked about the idiot therapist place that said I was too sick. A friend suggested I write a blog. I tried working on it while I was at Starbucks but nothing came to me as I just thought about my ex-therapist. It made me sad. I miss her so much. She sent off a refill for my Zoloft as that is the only medication that I need at the moment. I don’t have any refills left on it and it will need to be refilled before she is back from vacation.

After the appt, I went to mall to get my sunglasses fixed. I was so tired despite the caffeine intake. I hope I sleep good tonight and am not in too much pain. My mother made fish for dinner and as I was eating, some of the food irritated my gumline. It has been sore for more than a week now so I looked at it and it looks like I have an abscess. Wonderful. Guess I’ll be seeing the dentist on Monday rather than Thursday. I don’t think I can risk waiting that long.

I won’t be doing anything the rest of the night. I thought about taking another shower to get rid of the excess hair on my head but I used a facecloth to scrub it off. My hair is short anyways. I was too tired to take one. Sox are playing tonight so I will listen to the game. While on the bus ride home, a passenger accidently kicked my foot so I am sore and then my phone fell on it. So in addition to walking all over the place, I really hope pain doesn’t flare up. I took my pain meds soon as I got home. I might take the strong pain pill as a precaution. I had to take some ibuprofen while I was eating dinner as I haven’t taken any all day. Because I had food in my stomach, I took 800 mg. I usually take 600 mg when I haven’t eaten. I ate a lot of fish as it was really good and I didn’t have lunch.

Tomorrow is the cruise. I hope I am not in a lot of pain. I have been looking forward to this for a while now. A former coworker of mine will be going so it will be good to see her. I just hope the weather will be good. Rain will kill cause me so much pain but it’s supposed to be humid so we’ll see. I am so excited. My sister wants to go to Legal Seafood before the cruise. I’ll just have their clam chowder. I am not big on their food. Last time I ate there I had fried clams and it was not seasoned with anything but flour. It was awful. My sister like their lobster rolls. I am not a lobster fan so don’t get the appeal.

About G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about. also writing about my daily struggle with chronic pain and how it affects my suicidality
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One Response to long ass day and dental problems

  1. manyofus1980 says:

    that was a long day! I hope you enjoy the cruise. xoxo

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